darryL . ™ (:

Someone, somewhere.

2011-07-17T18:56:00.004+08:00

Everyone has someone that is meant for them, it just depends on whether the time is right or not.
Apparently, mine is lost somewhere, and too stubborn to ask for directions. Well, I can't help but envy people that had already found their partner, where I'm just struggling to survive without company.

Looking back at the past, I've came to realise that for everyone that came into your life, some found reasons to leave, some found reasons to stay. Those who chose the latter were my friends and family, where they painted my life colourful. Now, I just lack one artist to fill my heart red. That one person to listen to my rant, accompany me at times and complete my life. How I look on the surface is different from how I feel deep inside. The emptiness is slowly consuming me. It is not easy to find someone suitable for you, not to mention about getting together. However, I'm not gonna do the cliche thing of asking you guys to cherish each other, but I'm gonna do the opposite, to promise you that you'll regret for not keeping them close to your heart.

Putting my hands together, wishing that my someone will appear rightaway.

~

2011-03-08T13:46:00.000+08:00

Whats my name?

Stress.

2011-02-18T00:16:00.004+08:00

Sup guys! Yeah! Exams are REALLY around the corner. Well, its like 10 more days? GOSH! Gotta really work hard! Well, since its study break, lets talk about studies!

Studying can be a bitch. Especially exams or GRAND exams! Well, it create stress, and drift you away from several stuffs. For instance during O levels, i dare to say i neglected my family during that period of time. Its like staying back in school till 5+ 6pm and what we do at home is basically just .. Bathe, Dinner, Study. Sad to say, I actually didnt really talk to my parents during that period of time. Well, not only that. Friends? Yes friends! You won't have enough time to go out with friends, chit chat, or just have some fun.

I know my friends are all stressing for exams. In Poly, we have our final year exams. Sucks? How about JC where they have their A levels?!
Yeah, so my purpose of this post is to convey this message.Yes, you have to study really hard for your exams but remember to take a break from it! Like do some exercise, talk to some friends, and play some games etc. Don't forget to have a healthy diet and sufficient sleep! People don't study all night long not even top scholars, it will only get you stress and sickness! Also, do keep in contact with your friends, and save some time for your family alright? Don't keep all the stress inside you!!!

Studying is studying, but you must remember the principals of your life and most importantly ...
The smile on your face.

So to all my friends! Especially yufei! I wish you goodluck and all the best! Do succeed and get your desired results!
If you're stress and needed a listening ear, dont forget all of us are just 8 numbers away. (:

So ya. SMILE!! :DDD

Valentines.

2011-02-14T15:02:00.004+08:00

Happy valentines everyone!

As usual, i'm spending my valentines at home. No roses, no chocolates, no gifts! Hahaha well im used to it already as its like a routine every year. When it is 14 feb, its just HAPPY VALENTINES EVERYONE! And bammmm! Normal day ~
Hahaha so yup! hope every couples on earth can last long, and have fun on this day! And those who are single, cheer up! Valentines are not only for attached people! you can have fun too! Or maybe you can get your valentines on valentines? God knows! So goodluck in your life partner! :D

Alright, as for me .. I'm gonna start to study today! Maybe its valentines i can absorb more knowledge? ^^

Woot! Back from jogging! Hahaha feel so good after the jogging though im dead tired. Well, too long nvr exercise alr! So i think imma jog everyday now! Healthy lifestyle starts with you! Heheheh!

Bammmm! See ya guys! Shall blog again soon~
Once again, happy valentines! <3

Life.

2011-02-11T18:55:00.006+08:00

Whats happening guys? ^^

My mugging starts today! Gosh, the real exam is coming ): Goodluck to me! hahah. Alright today's topic will be inspiration!

Why so sentimental you might ask? Well i went to my LMS class today and the topic was about this. And i actually get inspired by the inspiration lesson. So im here to pour it out!

Inspiration to me means something that sends your mind into several paths, and give you the urge to do something. Something useful like setting your goals of what to achieve, make you more appreciative in life and stuffs. As for me, i got inspired when i watch a video that is very touching. Which made me think. Why am i hating my life so much when others out there that are worst then me are loving it? Why am I not happy when i have all the limbs i needed and others that are handicap are even more happier than me? This actually made me ashame of myself and made me take my hat off these people. Their life can never be as smooth as mine, why are they happier than i'm? The answer is very simple, they appreciate their life.
People without hands thinks 'Oh, at least i can walk!'
People without legs thinks 'Oh, at least i can see!'
People who can't see thinks 'At least i'm alive!'
Yet, what are us with perfect limbs thinking? Ask yourself...

I used to not appreciate my life and i'm actually hating it. I used to think that we live life to die. Its like, we left the womb, grow up, wasted so much resources and time, and in the end we still die. True? Or not? Well my thinking changed after the lesson. Since we're given the chance to live, why not appreciate it? There are people out there that wants to live, yet they die unwillingly in natural disasters or accidents etc, and yet there are people out there that can live but doesn't want to and they committed suicide.

Frankly speaking, i've thought of committing suicide several times. But now im so ashame of myself. By the way, have you thought about suicide too? I hope i'll change your mind after you read this. My Reason for suicide? Its when i'm really so sick of life and wanted a break from it. Its when i got into the downfall in life and don't feel like getting up. Its when something really upsets me that theres no way i can avoid it. Its when things don't go the way i want. I bet all of you got into all these that i've mentioned. Well, let me ask you this. Are you tougher and stronger after all these 'trainings'? Or are you getting all worn out. To me, i'll say i got tougher. Though all these things that happened are inhuman, hellish or *insert your own descriptive words*, it is actually making you tougher so that u can proceed in the path of life. For instance, your boy/girlfriend cheated on you and broke up with you. You might be sad, depressed and stuffs. But if you think back, it is better that you broke up now then you get married? And this incident of you getting dumped (pardon for using this word) might actually get you tougher, so that you can choose your partner wisely and carefully to avoid the same outcome. This is just one out of many many thousand million examples. So trust me, drop the idea of suicide and appreciate your life and be sure to excel in it!
''Darkness only exist so that stars can shine''

Lets assume hot water are the downfalls in life. So are you a carrot? That you get all soft and weak inside the boiling water. Or are you an egg? That takes all the pressure inside and turns into a hard-boiled one. Or are you a tea bag that will seize the boiling water and turn it into a tasty cup of tea? Choose for yourself. Either way, you'll have to swim in the boiling water. So why not be a tea bag?

I believe everything happen for a reason. Learn to cherish your life. Nobody's life is smooth and straight. Everyone's life is full of edges, curves and cliffs. Learn to overcome it, be strong and finish this race. And in the meantime, you will know that there are other people which is worst then you. Learn to appreciate your life, and live your life to the fullest.

Darryl`

New start.

2011-02-09T19:49:00.004+08:00

Hey guys!
Back to blogging about what happened recently and leave a checkpoint in my life!

Alright! So has 2011 been great for you? Its already 2 months and time really flies~ So .. Any new year resolutions? Well for me? Okay mine would be simple.
First, be a better person, and next improve my results!
Short and sweet isnt it? Hahhaha. Hope that i'll really acheive it and in a blink of an eye, it'll be another year again~
And also, hope that all of you can achieve yours too!
Okay moving on~ BAMM!

So basically, CNY just past, well not really past as its 15 days. Okay the celebration just past and we're back in school! I kinda find this year's CNY boring and dull, like not really a special occasion? I'm just saying, as maybe some of you may find it likewise~

Alright so .. Back to school... As usual, tutorials, lectures, and yawns and yawns and yawns. Best of all! EXAMS! Holy **** lol. Exams are around the corner but this time is different! I came up with my timetable with yongquan and decided to study using the study break. Well, last sem im still playing during my study break and ... BAMMM! 2.9 -.-
Hahha, well this sem is different actually. More exams as compared to last year. More difficult modules so we decided to start early! Goodluck to us!
Speaking of which, i've no choice since im colourblind or i wont be in this course. ~ Gahhh! i'll be in AEROSPACE instead T.T
Okay no point whining. So yup! Just try my best for this 3 years and BAMM! Society. Not gonna go UNI unless i'm able to. And i mean able to. Its like just try to survive this 3 years and see my total GPA. If im able to, i'll go. If not then too bad! hahahha! Anyway i'm sorta copying RWJ with the BAM! thingy (youtube him) cos his video really made me LMAO! New entertainment in lecture i'll say. hahahha.

Alright, so thats for school and studies. Moving on to family, i find that its nothing to talk about actually. Okay lets skip shall we? hahah!

BAMM! (Again ;/) And here comes friends! Well didnt have a chance to catch up with them lately as im freaking busy with school, projects and stuffs. So yup! Hope to see you guys soon~ And also, my holidays are coming! SO we can ton / slack / chit chat / whatever you want!

Alright so that would be all~ Nothing much to say actually.

Gah and now, im bored again! ;/
See ya guys!

Difference.

2010-11-29T20:30:00.002+08:00

Time: 8:30pm
Mood: Moody.

Not very sure why I'm having this feeling but it don't feel good. I just don't feel the same with my friends anymore. Its like I'm outcasted and that they didn't like my presence. Please tell me whats wrong, and I will change it, for you guys ..

Pangseh-ed ~

2010-10-30T18:58:00.004+08:00

Mood: Upset
Music: None.
Time: 1900

Nothing much to talk about. Basically, school starts and it sucks. Only one friend i know which is caleb and nobody else. However, made some friends during the first DSS workshop. More or less quite comfortable in class.

Not to mention, school takes up most of my time and i had no time for friends. So i would like to meet up with them soon and stuffs. Actually, i was about to ask them out today, but they went out without jioing me. ~.~ Felt quite disturbed by this but no choice, lol. Sigh, forget it. Gonna stay at home instead.

So yeah, nothing much to keep this post longer. Hope that i can survive this semester and get better grades. lol.

Last but not least, life sucks. =.=

Ending here. cya guys~

Yes or No?

2010-10-16T16:34:00.003+08:00

Time: 16:34
Mood: Bored
Song: Nightmare - Avenged Sevenfold

Hey guys, since lots of you were asking me to update, i have no choice but to do so. So here i begin!

Life had been dull for me. Why do i say so? Well basically my life is just sleep, maple, gamble, dota and blabla~ Since its holiday, its our tradition to waste it yeah? Hahaha, well what i really mean is i don't do meaningful things such as working, helping out in the house, or keeping my body shape and stuffs. And now im posting while mapling. LOL. And yeah, its private server! B12ms, search it or google it and join me ;D

Oh yeah, im trying to improve my guitar skills so yeah. hahahah its the most useful thing i did in my hols i guess. Well im still a noob, and i need more and more practice!! Wish me luck. hahah.

Last but not least, let me discuss about my chalet. :D
Well its harry's birthday and we're invited to his birthday party which is in a chalet. Didn't buy anything for him though. hahah, but i guess being with him will be a good one. So we went for 3d2n. No doubts it was fun! Gambling, drinking, singing, dancing, swimming, bbq-ing, sleeping, joking and lots more! Being together with my brothers are still the best! It clears all my doubts and made me happy :D
Not to forget, we caked harry thrice LOL! Its damn funnyyyyyyyy and i guess he's the only guy who get caked thrice during his bday. hahhaha~ Oh yeah. Theres this thing i wanna talk about.
YES! ITS ABOUT MY BLOODY TIME TABLE!!
On 11/10/10, we're tasked to pick our own timetable on selected time which is on 3pm. So me, yx, cj and yq went to macdonalds with 2 laptops to do our stuffs with yx's friend yimin. So since me and yq didn't bring out laptops, we have to use iPhone. LOL. But sadly, iPhone doesn't work so we have to take turns. Okay firstly, it's cj. (Cos its his laptop). He picked TB09 and quickly let yq login into his account. Sadly, it lagged. And theres no more TB09 left. So nevermind, the second best is TB02. As yx was done with his picking, he borrowed my his lappy. So i quickly log in as well. AND! It lagged again, and theres neither TB09 or TB 02 left. Which means, me yq and cj are in different class again. -_- So i chose TB10 (which as the best time slot left in the remaining classes). And hoping to find someone whom i know in that class. I thought of gabriel (as we saw him before we went to chalet) and i called him to ask what class did he went. And when he told me he's still lagging, i realise im not the most unlucky person after all. LOL! Sad to say, nobody i know is in TB10. And it seems like im a freshmen in poly again. -_- Nevermind, hope it's a blessing in disguise! If you get what i mean. *Winks~ :D
Alright, so blabla chalet and went home. And we have left 1 week left until school starts. SHUCKS!

Okay i guess thats the end of my post. Shall update if i have the chance.
Tata~ :D

So near, yet so far ...

2010-09-12T15:45:00.005+08:00

Time: 3.45pm
Mood: Down.
Music: Seize the day - Avenged sevenfold.

Back from tonning with those guys again. Its been around hours and my butt is burning from the stone chair i've been sitting on for the past 16hours. Anyway, my friend showed me something that kept my concentration drifting away from my mind. No doubts, its about her. He found her facebook profile and i didn't even know she had one. Though she only had less then 100 friends, I can't deny the fact that she had long forgotten me. Well, whats more to expect? We stopped contacting each other for approximately 2 years. But i had to admit that this really kept me logging in to facebook and visiting her profile right after i reached home. What is wrong with me? Didn't i forget her long ago? Either way, i had no courage to face her after seeing her profile pictures with her you know, boyfriend i guess. Well, its natural right? And i guess i still had feelings for her, or preferably, i cared for her or rather, i can't put myself to forget her. Theres so many better girls out there but none of them caught my attention, or rather i'm only the one in the crowd without any attractive points. All i knew is that I just want that person. I know its not worth it, i know its foolish or rather selffish. I just know i miss her. I really do. Seeing her with him really brings me mixed feelings. I felt happy for her with a person she love, but it disheartens me at the same time. Still, this doesn't stops me from clicking the 'add as friend' button. However after second thoughts, i hesitated. What if she had long forgotten me and asked me 'who are you'? What if she said she's attached for a period of time? What if she didn't even accept me? Can i withstand the impact? The heart piercing pain that i once encountered? I know i couldn't, its too much for me. Within seconds, i deleted the pending friend request. All i could do now from this so near yet so far distance is to wish that she can take care of herself. And I pray by the grace of god that she can be happy. Everything about her is safely kept in my mind, a place where only I'm familiar with and nobody else can enter. I'll keep everything safe and sound, until the day where miracles happen.

Being faithful isn't the real solution.

And i would like to thank all my friends for cheering me up and being there for me when i needed a shoulder. Without you guys, i would had collapse. Thanks people, i love you guys. Friends forever. \m/

Bored.

2010-08-31T00:51:00.003+08:00

Time: 0051
Mood: Bored
Music: Not the american average - Asking Alexandria

Wow, theres actually people who still visit this dull blog and actually read the content! Kinda shocked but happy. hahah, thanks people who actually read and left a tag. (:

Alright, basically my life has nothing to elaborate on as it is jus computer, sleep, dota, eat, study. So ya, and my routine is kinda screwed as i wake up in the evening and sleep in the morning. LOL! nocturnal indeed. hahah!

Anyway, i had been hooked up to the 'Texas grand poker' on facebook and had been playing it for quite a while. And since exams are around the corner, i spend around 2 - 3 hours studying 1-3 chapters a day depending on my mood. Hahha! So I had completed microeconomics and almost done business statistics! just need to touch up on abit and memorise things here and there before the exam date. Before i forget, one of my module (itb) changed the format of the test from MCQ and Fill in the blanks to Short answer questions! Which made me goes : ' Fail already' , 'GG' and stuffs. hahahah! Fucked up man, its alot to memorise and its my worst module! Ahhh, shall spend some time studying it during the study break.!

Alright whats more to mention? Hmmm ... Oh ya, tomorrow is teachers day! So i hereby wish all the teachers in the world (Except for dog teachers like ... you know) happy teachers day! And a special one to Mr philip tan! hahah, tomorrow may be going back to Punggol secondary school to visit them but its early in the morning 9am! So i shall not say anything about my decision as i may be too lazy to go. lol!

Alright, i'm too bored to continue this! People, talk to me on msn! I'm so so so bored! And i bet you're too! *Assuming you are as you have nothing better to do then reading my BORING post* xD

Yup! So i guess thats all for keeping this blog alive as i can't think of any topics to post. I shall continue my Texas grand poker now. Hehehhe!

Remember to tag!! :DDD
Goodbye and take care peeps!

Random.

2010-08-18T20:52:00.004+08:00

Time: 20:52
Mood: Bored
Music: Dignity - Bullet for my Valentine

Blogging since i had the free time while waiting for a game. Lets chat about my life, shall we? Hahaha, this would be a happy post! :D

Anyway, its two weeks past YOG Holiday and i haven't start my revising for my final exams. Nevermind, i shall use the study break wisely. hahaha. Also, i had been rotting my days away with dota, poker cards and sleeping. LOL! Just don't feel like studying yeah? Hhahahaha.

Since i don't really have a topic to post about, this shall be a random post! Alright, tomorrow will be yongquan's birthday and we will be having a gathering! Omg, can't wait. Hahahah, gonna stay outside till morning yeah? Looking forward to it. (:

Alright, since doggy fei is watching anime and doggy han is eating, i shall do something else too. I can't think of things to keep this post any longer. Hmmms, guess i shall end here? Since nobody really read it anyway. X.X

To you guys: If you happen to be reading this, please leave a tag alright. It at least gave me a reason to keep this blog alive. Or it just seemed like i'm talking to myself. lol~

Alright, ending here. Take care all~
Good-bye~ :D

Reminissions.

2010-08-12T04:12:00.009+08:00

Time: 4:12am
Song: On top of the world - Boys Like Girls
Mood: Disheartened

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night,
you make me wanna hold you till the morning light ..

Familiar? This is a blogsong of my friend(cianyuh) that triggers my thoughts when i was passing by her blog. It reminds me of the past, and a special person.

Recently, memories about her kept linger on my mind, I had no idea about the reason too. I just want to see her for the last time, to see her smile that would melt my heart. She just disappeared from my life, no facebook, no msn, nothing .. No ways to contact her at all. Maybe you can never understand how i feel. But it is definitely not something nice. It is rather disheartening, disappointing or depressing. No single word can express that feeling.

It still seemed like yesterday where everything was just fine. Where she will smile at me and hold my hand. Talk to me and make my day. The smile i had on those days were definitely different from what i had now, thats how i feel. It had been months, or rather years, that everything was over. You do the math, i remembered it was sec three. She can remain on my mind for so long, yet others can just be forgotten on the next day. Is this the power of love? I have no idea but I'm sure it is powerful. To reminiscing everything by simple things such as a place, a song, a sentence, a smell, a voice, or even food. It is not things that can happen easily, but things that your mind and even your brain doesn't wanna let go. Just like now, I'm listening to songs that she liked and that she would listen with me which will bring my conscious back to the past, far more powerful than a time machine.

I remembered everything about you. There is no need to read it on a diary, not neccesary to squeeze my brain juice to remember. Instead, everything just flowed back smoothly, like it was locked in some part of me. Or maybe it went into my blood when my skin tore because of you. Every single thing you gave me are in perfect condition. Even a movie that we caught on our first outing, the ticket is still with me. I just don't bear to destory things that are related to you in any forms. I want to keep it safe and secure, until the day i step into my coffin.

For you:
Though we're still under the same stars, we will not be connected.
Though we're still in the same planet, we will not meet again.
Though we're still in the same century, our lives will not intercept each other.
Just like parallel lines, we will never meet.

I will keep all these precious memories with me. Something that is more valuable than the 'X' marked on the pirates' map. Something that has been long forgotten by you.
I love you.

Dream.

2010-08-12T04:12:00.001+08:00

Life.

2010-08-06T00:04:00.005+08:00

Mood: Bored, normal.
Current Music: So Far Away - Avenged Sevenfold
Time: 00.04

In the mood to post, or rather to type words into sentences. So without further ado, i shall begin with something random, special.

Life
Life is something everyone knows, or rather everyone is experiencing. People have different perspective towards life. Some hates life, some adores life , some just don't give a fuck and carry on with their life.

Why a portion of the people in this world hates life? I guess they perceive life as something boring, or rather meaning-less. Ask yourself, 'Why do you live to die?' Such as you were borned, you lived, wasted so much time, and in the end you still have to die. So where do we go when we're dead? What will be the world for us? An afterlife? Which the cycle repeats? It do sounds boring. Maybe thats the reason? Or maybe they can't get what they desire in life? Such as wealth, freedom, or even love? Some was even borned to suffer. Without some of their limps, or even lack of intelligence. I guess i've covered all the reasons?

So why do another portion of the population in this world adores life? If you notice, poor people lived happily. Why? Because their life is simple. No high end technology like computers, facebooks, iPhones . No games like dota, starcraft. No communication devices and transport like handphones, MRT. So how they communicate? Simply by shouting. How they past their time? By playing simply games, five stones, hopscotchs. How they travel around places? By walking. These are all attributes and elements of life that had been forgotten when technology improves. Countries that couldn't catch up with technology would land into the 'third world' .Where their lives would be the simpliest. Without proper clothings, food, and even shelters. And they continued their life. Whereas for humans living in countries like Singapore, with beautiful environment, well established shelters, and delicious cuisines. And yet, they hate their life. Some even committed suicide, just because they met obstacles in life. Or even their desires are not fulfilled.

Whereas for me, I belong to the category of 'I don't give a fuck, and i'm gonna carry on this shit'. Though Life can be a bitch, just live with it as nothing can be done to change the fact right? Actually, life can be exciting if you look it on another angle. So yeah, there are things i want to fulfill before my life end too. I'm not gonna list everything out and i hope that everyone out there are living their life to the fullest. So if Life is really a bitch, be a dick and screw it. HEHE! Just a joke. :D

Hope everyone will enjoy their life and take care! (:

The Rev.

2010-07-28T15:44:00.003+08:00

This post shall be about my favourite band as well as the world's greatest drummer, The Rev.
About Avenged Sevenfold, their album Nightmare had just been released on 27.7.2010. Though I got all their songs on like 24/25, i will still purchase their album. So yeah, try to support them too.

With reference to the songs in the album, there are two songs that I really liked. The songs are 'So far away' written by Synyster Gates for The rev, and 'Fiction' written by The Rev himself with his piano playing and his vocals present before he past away.

So far away resembles the feelings Synyster gates had for The Rev and is was written all by himself. Clarance once said that his fellow band members felt that it was good enough but Syn himself is not satisfied. This shows how talented he is. The feelings for the Rev can be clearly heard from songs through the album, showing that they are sad, and their love for The Rev. There goes one of my favourite song.

Secondly, fiction is also a wonderful song. As chenjun had said, fiction sent chill down his spine whenever he hears it. Which i totally agree, especially the part where The Rev's vocals came in, so beautiful, so touching. The lyrics written by him also gave me a feeling that he knew his time is up. The lyrics can be seen below:

Now i think i understand
How this world can overcome a man.
Like a friend we saw it through
In the end i gave my life for you.

Gave you all i had to give
Found a place for me to rest my head.
While i may be hard to find
Heard there's peace just on the other side.

[rev]
Not that i could
Nor that i would
Let it burn
Under my skin
Let it burn.

Left this life to set me free
Took a piece of you inside of me.
Now this hurt can finally fade
Promise me you'll never be afraid.

[rev]
Not the i could
Nor that i would
Let it burn
Under my skin
Let it burn

I hope its worth it here on the highway yeah
I know you'll find your own way when i'm not with you

So tell everybody the ones who walk beside me yeah
I know you'll find your own way when i'm not with you tonight

I hope its worth it whats left behind me yeah
I know you'll find your own way when i'm not with you

So tell everybody the ones who walk beside me yeah
I know you'll find your own way when i'm not with you tonight

From the first paragraph, it seemed that The Rev knew he was dying. And there is also rumours about the rev making deals with devil, so it is not impossible from this sentence :' Like a friend we saw it through.In the end i gave my life for you.'
By inferring from the second to the fifth paragraph, it also seemed like The Rev had been in pain and can finally fade.
Last but not least, the rest of the paragraphs are telling his fellow band members to carry on their journey without him and he hope that what he did in the past will be worth it.
'So tell everybody the ones who walk beside me yeah
I know you'll find your own way when i'm not with you tonight'.

The Rev, a fantastic drummer, and a genius songwriter conveyed his message through a song, fiction orginally entitled death.

Nightmare is definitely an album worth buying.

Rest in peace Jimmy, we will miss you. \m/

Falling Apart.

2010-07-21T20:08:00.004+08:00

Time: 08.08pm
Mood: Normal.
Music: Buried Alive - Avenged Sevenfold.

Shall update my blog as promised. Alright, this shall be a random post of everything that happened to me. (:

Friends. This is for my clique, and this is how i feel. I can feel the gap within us now. And it seems like we had difted apart. Was it because of me not trying to catch up with you guys? Trust me, i wanted to, but was too busy. I don't want to go back to the past, and you guys should know. The feelings is just like, I'm trying hard to hold back but everything that happened just showed that I'm not one of you guys anymore. Examples? Like you guys not informing me whenever there is an outing. Not letting me know about the details that happened to my good friend, something that everybody elses know, but not me. I know I can't say much, you have the rights not to let me know, but I'm just very disappointed. We had been so close, so close that my life is just about you guys. Going out almost everyday, slacking outside till sunrise, so much of inside jokes, sitting around a table for hours just to thrash talk and gamble... All these held our relationship close together, making us not just friends, but brothers. Thinking back about those wonderful time we had, and comparing that with now is really disheartening. What can I do to stay in the battle? With you warriors? I have no idea. What you dislike about me, feel free to tell me, and i will try my very best to salvage, this relationship of 11 of us that is now falling apart. There is so much feelings inside me that couldn't be converted to words. Just hope you guys understands what is torturing me.

Friends / Brothers?
I don't want it to end like this.

Love.

2010-07-09T22:45:00.003+08:00

Time: 22.45
Mood: Normal
Current Music: Seize the day - Avenged Sevenfold

After reading Shawn Milke's post on Revolver, it gave me the adrenaline rush to update my blog. Anyway, what should I start with? My usual post of my life? Or something different? Either way, lets begin.

Do you ever came across a time where your playlist shuffled to a song that bring you back to the past? Have you ever chose a song just to think of someone? Did your mind automatically play a song when you thought of someone? If you realise, this normally happen when that person used to be very close to you but not anymore due to some reason. Have you ever wonder why? Is it you or that person? What exactly happened? When I think back, I can't really remember the real reason. Why is this so? It is purely because I get angry or agitated over small problems that triggers the argument, where it will worsen and ended up with splittings. So, I realised the real reason; it is me.

I have to admit the jealousy in my heart when I happened to past by couples. It will remind me of this: It's been long since a girl's name repeatedly appear on my phone's screen. It's been long since I called up a girl and chat for hours. It's been long since I held a girl's hand. Haha, I sure sound desperate don't I? Don't worry, its just that I miss those little actions and happy moments which I'm lacking now. Sometimes I really needed a listening ear to listen to my sorrows, a shoulder to lean on when I'm sick of life. However, i still managed to survive. So the morale of this blog is :
Life = Vision Love = Colour
You can still see without colour, You can live without love. Love is just a decoration. (:

I guess I will update my blog more often.
So stay tuned people. (:

Stressed - desserts?

2010-05-30T23:11:00.002+08:00

Time: 11.11 pm.
Mood: Stressed
Current Music: Nightmare - Avenged Sevenfold.

As requested from someone, I'm here to blog blog blog. Hahaahha. As you can see, my mood is stressed. Should i have some desserts? *Spelled backward*

By the way, its chinese O levels tomorrow. So best of luck to everyone taking it! Must score A1 A1! Lol, sounded cliche don't I? hahaha. Anyway, poly sucks ttm! Meetings, presentations, common test, all in a week? Wtf. 3 hours transport everyday. How much more tiring it can be? Should i just give up on everything and just let it go? Fuck man. Feel so screwed up. ): I don't wanna fail, i wanna score. I wanna pass my Poly and fuck education. Lol, no more Uni. No more education. (:

Oh ya, tomorrow is raphael's birthday. Happy birthday raphael. Last long with your girl. (: And it had been long since i last saw you. See you soon! hahaha. And cheerup, my dear raphael. LOL.

Although Idk what to post, i shall continue to write to keep this post longer. Also, i got this feeling my desktop is gonna crush soon. LOL. My graphic card is screwed up and my ram isn't enough. Causing it to have blue screen whenever i dota. Damn, lol. My only game ... Soon, its gone... ARGHHHH! And hor, i damn bored nowadays. People, talk to me leh. hahhahaha. If not my life is going down down down down down down down ... ~ So sian. And leave a tag too, my box is dying!

Okay, thats all folks! Have a nice day! :DD

P/s: My blog is a happy blog? LOL. *winks. ^^

Quote of the day: Forgive and forget. Think in other people's shoe too. (:

Why ..

2010-05-15T00:00:00.004+08:00

Time: 00.00
Mood: Exhausted.
Current music: Lip gloss and black - Atreyu.

Saying hi again to you people. Feeling bored and had nothing to do. Just finished my bstats tutorial where I don't know anything about it, just tried and complete it. It's better than a blank piece of paper right? Lols. Anyway, these few days had been boring to me. Didn't really meet up with them. And have had no idea how the planning of the movie had became. Hmmms, shall decide next time. Plus, yufei and chenghan not at home. It's freaking boring for me. Hahahahha.

Anyway, get to know all of my Poly-mates better nowadays, and had been getting along well. Which is a good sign? Cause all my modules requires project. So it is better to know each other beforehand so as to work better. Anyway, just to emphasize, Poly had been tiring for me, perhaps due to the long journey in the morning which reduces my dream time. lol. Some lecturers sucks and they sent question marks on our head. How are we gonna survive and get 4.0 for our GPA? GodDamnItMotherFuckingBullshit. Plus, it is so independent in Poly, crap I'm so not used to this type of education. Nevermind, I'll try my very best. Meanwhile, wish all of you people the best of luck. Chiong for GPA!

Forgive me people, this paragraph is for her.
How are you? Are you doing good? I have lots of things to tell you, but I'll never get the chance to. Perhaps, you don't even visit this blog anymore. Why? Why I seemed to disappear in your life and your presence is still so clear in my mind? This isn't fair. How can you say I love you and disappear in the next second? Forget it, life isn't fair at all. I shall let you go and move forward .. But years down the road, I will never forget your name, your face, your smile, your breathe ... That released a word that changed my life. I love you. Goodbye.

Shag.

2010-05-04T10:10:00.004+08:00

Time: 10.10am
Current mood: Normal
Music: Nil.
Weather: HOT.

Hi all, I'm posting in Sonny phua's lesson. LOL. Super sian uh. Okay, let me talk about my poly life. Basically, wake up early in the morning, meet yq and cj den go to school. Sometimes meet yx kw, sometimes meet clarance dean jermyn. Anyway, when we reach school, we're either on the dot or late. LOL. Damn, then these few days i keep late. Kao. hahahhahaah.

Den modules are okay... Lectures are boring ... Tutorials are exhausting ... POLY IS TIRING!

Okay, here we go!

MIEC: TEACHER IS HOT! LOLOL. And its quite okay for me for the tutorial.

BSTA: TEACHER IS ALSO OLD. LOL. And also okay for me to do the tutorials.

BCOM: TEACHER IS OLD. LOLOL. One of the module i hate the most. Cause it includes presentations, damn sian. ):

OBSE: TEACHER IS BLACK! AHAHAHAAHAHAH. The module very boring uh, i also dun really like it, but still managable. rofl

IJS: TEACHER IS OKAY. Quite fun uh, that module. I like it, but hope that every week is interesting. :D

S&W: TEACHER SUCKS. Chose basketball, but learn basics. hahahhahaha. Passing, dribblings and stuffs. Quite sian ah, hope to play match soon!

Okay, no more liao. Sonny phua going through tutorials and i'm here posting. HHAHAHHAH.

Okay thats all. I'm ending! I'll be back if I suddenly thought of stuffs to update.

Thats all peeps. BYE!

P/S: We will survive in Poly, our friendship will last long! WARRIORS FTW!

Friends.

2010-04-11T22:22:00.005+08:00

Time: 22.22
Mood: Shag
Music: Second Heartbeat - Avenged Sevenfold.

Hey all, decided to post again. Its quite boring for me now. Waiting for my friends to dota, and here I am, nothing to do. Anyway, heard that all schools will have their orientation week tomorrow. Meaning it'll be even dry tomorrow. Ahhhh!

Alrights, what should I talk about? Friends?
Poly is gonna start soon, will we part? I have no idea, but 11 warriors never die~! Let me start one by one of my friends!

Yongquan: Yo Gold hair. LOL. Remember last year where we quarrelled with each other? Its quite stupid when I recalled. Hahahs. Anyway, you'll always lend me a listening ear, you're definitely my great friend! We used to slack, play basketball and more and more. Hang out, heart to heart talk and stuffs. Glad to know that we're in the same course. Hope to stay in contact as long as possible!

Chenjun: Yo same course again. LOL. My longest friend i think. 4 years? And counting! Also one of my dota and dai dee mate. LOL. Thanks for being my friend. You rock! I still remember you're the first person i talked to in punggol sec. LOL. Lend tissue huh? FUCK YOU! :D

Yixiang: HI SAME COURRSEEEE AGAINNNN. LOL, you uh sibei dao de leh. But neverminds la. I know alot alot of you liao. LOL. And hor, we used to do homework togetherrrrrr. Dnt, history yeah!? Sometimes i wonder ... When will you find a girlf? Hmmmms, let time do the arrangements bah. Hahahhas. Got girlf must tell me hor.!

Choonkiat: Yo dick! LOL, you also one of my longest friend. You ah, dun always emo emo liao. I used to be the same as you de, now I okay liao, you lidat. Lol, dun giv up the whole forest for 1 chenghan la. LOL. 11 warriors never die? :D Stay in contact ah! Steady!

Clarance: yo seksy. LOL. With you hor, always kena spooky things de sia. Kao, LOL. hahaha. And thankyou for being my guitar teacher. LOL. Your skills is awesome. No doubts. ^^ And, dun make the wrong decision. Or you will regret.~ You should know what im talking. And remember stephen low class? LOL. Dun sleep in poly! :D Keep in contact!

Jiunn liang: Yo kapo. LOL. know you for not very long, but our bonds are strong! Hahhaha rhyme eh? And you also, dun javier too much, heard that you're a hardcore one. I dowan see black kapo sia. LOL. Got girlf also must tell me ah! hahaha.

Harry: Hi 4 year friend. LOL. Also got problem with you last time. But now, FUCK HER. RIGHT? LOL. Dirty my life only, no is our life. LOL. You should know who im talk about. :D And you hor. Dun think that you private dua bai hor. Must also contact us! :D

Yufei: HI NIANG. LOL. You ah, must study hard in Jc hor. Dun gamble, dota, go out liao. I dowan see you retain or what sia. hahahha. Say is lidat say la, FEI, GO YOUR HOUSE TON! LOL. And hor, only you go jc sia, dun forget us hor!

Dean: Yo deanie! I used to dislike you sia. Hahhaha! In school la, always thought of you as sarcastic freak and horndawg. But DEAN, I LOVE YOU NOW. LOL. hahahah. You become more sexy liao la. Best drummer siaaaaaa! And hope you get a girlfriend soon and must tell me also! Stay in contact uh!

Jermyn: Yo ting! We Seldom talk yeah, but you rocks! You also another guitar biantai! LOL. Go your house again someday! Got girlfriend must tell me! Dun just look at thighs la, character is also important! LOLOLOL. HAHAH. keep in contact!

Chenghan: Veggie! You damn best la. I LOVE YOU. LOL. Dota craze sia we all. + talking to you when i'm down is the best luh. Thanks for being my friend. And i like to tease you uh, dun angry ah! LOL. We different poly leh. ): Must keep in contact hor! Lol, and you promised me to eat meat LOLOL.

Raphael: Yo bone! You also damn nice la. Always call you confirm got come down de. Although you always afk in dota. Cb! LOL. Seriously, you're a good friend. Thanks for being my friend And last long long with her uh! :D Stay in contact!!

Zankai: Yo ZANKAI! LOl. Although our clique different, you also damn nice la. I LOVE YOU ALSO! Hahhahaha. Salt yeah? LOL. I also know alot of your secret. Used to but not now. AHhahah. Remember sand king become scorpion king? LOL I really laughed my arse out. Hahhahahahahhaha. Keep in contact ah!

Kevin: HI. And stop calling me da nai! LOL. Kevin ah kevin, dun keep late sleep la, not good for health. And dun eat too much la, later you grow 'watermelon-sized breast' LOL!! HAHAHAH DUN WHACK ME WHEN YOU SEE THIS! <3

All of this are for my closer friends. YOU are also my friend uh! Hahahha. Sorry for those i didnt mention!

P/s: Warriors! We promised to organise an outing where we, the 11 warriors will bring our 11 princess! Deal? :D hahahahahha!

Thats all folks! :D
Sayo and nara~

Personality.

2010-04-07T14:36:00.004+08:00

Suddenly got the urge to post. Since its a random one, the time will not be beautiful. (:

Yeah, gave my camp a miss today. Yesterday wasn't feeling well and insomnia strikes again after my short nap, making me lack of sleep for an early camp the next day. The camp was quite boring (for me) but i made some new friends. They're definitely friendly! So i think i'll still be going for tomorrow, which is the last day of camp.

Recently, was back to dota frenzy with some of my friends. Sitting in front of the computer for almost 10 hours. I bet it will be hard for me to adopt in Poly life. Anyway, met a new friend in dota too. Yeah, thats why i'm so addicted in dota. *Winks* Hope that friend doesn't sees this... Haha. Just a joke. (:

Anyway, yesterday when i was lying on the bed. This question rushed through my mind.
'What is your good points?' I thought of it and i couldn't actually find an answer. Does that shows how sucky I'm? Oh it really does. To think in every way, I really do suck. Like studies, personality, looks, character and stuffs ... Not that I'm emo, but just a reflection of myself.

Speaking of which, its been ages since i blogged. Sorry guys! Kind of lazy yeah. :X
Okay, thats all folks.
Have got nothing to do as all of my dota mates didn't reply me. Maybe shall train on my skills! For ... ? *Guess it yourself. :D

Goodbye ~

Boredddddd.

2010-03-06T16:45:00.002+08:00

4.44pm, 大热天 ==

Hahhas, finally i'm blogging? Thats right!! I'm so bored now and i decided to do something i didnt do for years- blogging. LOL. As today was a resting day, I will be staying at home and maybe going out at night to slack as usual. Chenghan's bro was home and he cant dota with me. This added on to my boredom. Damn, so what should i talk about now? Hmmmmmms ... Lets start with enrollment!

Basically, the enrollment sucks! LOL. Alots of things to do and damn troublesome. 不幸中的大辛就是: Ngee Ann's enrollment is much much easier than other poly's enrollment. Other polys need to do things like Checkups, x-rays. And even required to go down to some bank to do their payment thingy. Omtian. Lucky me. LOL. Anyway, I still dunno what lappy to buy lehhh. Fugitsu or Lenovo???? AHHH. i5 or i7???? AHHHH! 妈的, just finish enrollment thingy now come lappy thingy. Damn it. ==
Anyway passerbys, tell me what lappy you buy leh, tell me which one good also. LOL. Ty.!

Now wanna talk about what? Hmmms. Okay loh, talk about outings loh. Yeah, basically we went to watch movies these few days. Like Percy jackson, wolfmen, True legend, and Being human. Upcoming will be : Happy go lucky and maybe Alice in wonderland. LOL. Movie marathon yeah? Hhahahah. And hor, we went to sentosa that day, to suntan! LOL. Its damn shuang la. Then we invent one new game. Which is playing dai dee ( Big 2 ) and the loser with the most cards will have to ask a girl for number, and it must be a success. LOL. Hhahah, interesting? Exciting? You will feel it when you play! LOLLLLL.

Hahha, now what? I damn bored laaaaa. Someone talk to me lehhhhh. lol. And hor, singapore is so damn hot la. like 36degrees? Damn it, on air-con also hot sia. One day must dunno bathe how many times. Fcuk this season, faster change lehhhh. T.T

Okayyyyy. Idk what to talk liao. I also dk when will i post again. HAHA.
You all must tag more then i will have the motivation to blog ma!
Be it passer-by, friends, enemies, and whatsoever! TAG!
So you people, FASTER TAGGGGGGG HOR!
LOL. So stay tuneeeee peeeeeeeeps!!
Thats all folks. Goodbyeeee!
Sayonaraaaaaaaaaaa~

(notice the pattern?) LOL

Drunk.

2010-02-08T19:35:00.002+08:00

0707pm, 晴天

Went to buangkok with lots of my friends that day. I actually promised not to drunk so as to take care of you all. But i guess i'm the one who is the worst bah. This is the first time i'm drunk, am i scary? Did i said alot of things? Or did alot of things? I dun know. All i know is that i vomitted for goddamn dunno how long and it felt like my heart is coming out also. Went to see doctor the day after and he scolded me for drinking so much despite my gastric problems. LOL. Thats why i only vomitted but did not have any headache. And perhaps, its my old gastric problems that cause me all this. Luckily nothing actually happened to us, and the police is good enough to let us go. And also, i wanna thank those people who took care of me, people like dean and choonkiat. And maybe some others that i dun remember. Just wanna say, thank you.

Anyway, I was damn sad that day, and kept on asking yongquan to go to punggol with me. I remembered this. And i missed her, but i didn't have the courage to text her like what my buddy did. Yeah, i'm afraid that she wouldn't even remember me, and she'll hate me. Flashbacks of her made my heart ache. I don't know if i cried that day, i only know that i wanna see her for once, just once and it will make me happy. However, in my state that day, i dun think i can even walk. I dun know what had happened to me, what i know is that i still love her. It had been a year already and i dunno if i can forget her when i go into poly. Neverminds, i guess the night in buangkok made me cleared my sorrows. I felt much better now, and i guess i would try to let her go, even though it is difficult, i will still try. As holding on to her wouldn't bring her back. Right?

Girl, what drug had you gave me? Its so addictive...
Anyway, Thank you for leaving all this sweet memories in my life. You will always remain in my heart. I dun mind if you had already forgotten me, i just hope that what you once said is real. I love you and i will do everything just to bring you back. But nothing could be done right? Just wish that you can live your life happily, please take care of yourself and dun make me worry. Hope that you can last long with a guy you truly love. Everything you gave me is still perfectly fine, and i kept it with me all these while. I am waiting for a chance to show you, that this is what you gave to me, handwritten by you. And i hope that you still have it with you; everything i gave you, handwritten by me. Goodbye my love, you left a scar on me, one that cannot be forgotten.

I handed you a knife and my heart, and now the dream is over...

For my love,
K-

And to all my friends, thanks for the concern. I'm alrights, just a little not feeling well. Are you guys okay too? Hope so. And just hope to stay in contact as long as possible. Thanks for being there for me, i appreciated. And you guys stay happy too.

Is this a nightmare? Is my K- really gone?
Please wake me up, please wake me...

The Emptiness;

2010-01-28T19:07:00.011+08:00

Its 7:07 now.

Anyway, i promised Silent reader to post a happy post, so this one shall be a happy one. Hahhhas. ^^v

Now i'm rotting at home. OMGOMG, all of my friends are working. Idk what to do, i wanna work also!! Damned! Got any lobang must tell me uh!!!!!!!! Andand, Yufei, melvin, yee zheng and blabla had their first day in JC today, hope it turns out fine for them. And to yufei and melvin, hope that your 'plans' will succeed. Goodluck!! LOL. ^^

Idk what to post already leyy, basically i'm playing dota, listening to music all day~ Yawns, so boring!!~ I'm trying to keep this post long, but i guess i failed to do so. LOL.

Anyway, Alesana's new album; The Emptiness rocks! OMG, all songs are so nice!!

ALESANA FOR THE WIN!! The Emptiness Will Haunt you. \m/

Alrights, a random phrase from Alesana's The Emptiness album; A lunatic lament:

Darling will you please take a walk with me, we can count the stars and disappear~

Nice right? :DDDD

Alesana!~ You guys rocks. \m/

Lovelorn.

2010-01-26T21:21:00.003+08:00

Hey all, its 2121 now, feeling fcuked up or sad? Same...

Alot of things happened in these few days yeah, guess alcohol is the only cure, my friends? Yeah, i think so too. I been through the same as you guys, and i'm still in the middle of it. I know its hard, i know its torturing. At least you guys have the chance to just drink and get drunk. Whereas i couldn't as I need to help you guys and etc. I'm not blaming you all or what, i just wished for a chance to get myself real drunk. Spill everything out and thats it. Maybe it wouldn't help but it would be better den keeping everything inside right? Hais, FML.

To my friends that just had a fresh breakup: Cheerup, there's many out there. I know saying this may be useless, but look, you cant keep holding on forever, like what i'm today right? So just try as hard to forget it when it is not as deep. Or it will be hell when it reached a stage that cant be changed. I've been through it, i understand. Feel free to contact me, for a heart to heart talk, or anything. Just 8 numbers away. (:

To my friends that are holding on for his girl: Hey, we're on the same boat. I know what it feels like. Seriously, the feeling sucks. Its like hoping for something that you cant get it. I know. Even though its no point holding on but i just cant let go, right? Sighs, I feel so lonely at times, do you? I needed company, or a shoulder to lie on, do you? I need someone to listen to all my sorrows, do you? Guys, we muz help each other to remove ourself's from this 'boat'. So just jiayou for another 3 months and we can start our life anew in poly. Make sure we stay in contact and we will organise an outing where we'll bring our girlfriends and go out together. Promise? And as usual, just feel free to contact me. I'll be more than glad to share my feelings. Thanks for being there for me, and i'll be there for you. (:

These words just represented me:
Solitary, Lovelorn, Breakdown, Sorrow, Lost, Tired, Heartbroken, Somber.
Any other ones?
Remind me on the cBox.
Goodbye, gooodnight, for good.

Mixed feelings.

2010-01-18T18:06:00.004+08:00

Hey all, its been like ages since i last posted. Hahahhas, due to many's request, i decided to update again. :D

Anyway, its 06.06 now. (:

Speaking about results, I'm quite happy and satisfied about it. At least my hard work paid off yeah? And i applied for mostly Ngee Ann poly. Anyway, my desired course is Aerospace and i always had a feeling that i cant get in due to my results. Now, my result's qualified, and its my eyes that had been a burden to me; Colourblindness. ==
Also, hope that we can still stay in contact even if we went to different schools. Again, those who didn't did well, cheerups too. Its already over yeah? Forget about it.

Alrights, now to daily routine.
I had been playing computer all day and gambling all day.
Basically, it starts like this:
Woke up at 6PM or so, eat my dinner a.k.a breakfast.
Play computer till 9+ 10. Games includes Dota, Maple.
Go down to slack, gamble till morning. 5+ am or maybe later.
Reach home, bathe, surf net till 7+am , Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
And it starts again~

Owl yeah? My mom will say, 生活颠倒 or what, x.x

Anyway, theres this freaky spree that started between the gamblers.

It starts like this. 4 of us playing big 2 at one of the void decks nearby. Then, nothing happen and everything was fine. Then, we will be continue playing. Until like 10+ rounds, it will begin... It always begins when yufei was the distributor. Yufei will crack the cards, shuffle and open a card to see who starts first. And when he gives out. He will find something wrong such as the sequence of distributing is wrong and one of us misses one card. And that person will be me. Den all of them have the exact number of card except for me! MEANING ONE CARD JUST GO MISSING LIKE THIS!? And we cant find the card that is missing. Whats more scary is that it happened twice. First time is Spade 5 missing, the second time is Spade 10 missing. OMFG. The eerie thing is that theres funeral nearby... Omg. ;X

Hahhahahs, alrights.
Finally a long post yeah? Anyway, i wanna go tyo chalet!!! Omg, damn bored at home. Cant wait for the chalet. Hahahahahs. Will be having fun together and perhaps, our last gathering? Should be~ ):

Oh ya, i gonna go play dota liao. Stay tuned peepos. (:
P/S: I blogged liao hor, make sure all of you taggs. :X

Thats all folks,
Sayo and nara~ :D

Solitary.

2010-01-08T00:00:00.002+08:00

The time now is 00.00.

Suddenly have the urge to post. Maybe because i have a thousand words that is needed to spill it out. Nothing much these few days. Only gamble, maple, dota. Anyway, yufei's back. And, i'm scared of my results. Hope that monday goes well. ~

Speaking about school, i'm damn pissed off. Why must we cut our hair for just a result taking? Why last year sec 4s can have their hair so long? I colour back already give you face le sia. Crap school.

Anyway, i used to go to her facebook. But i always see things that i don't like. Somehow i'm in no position to say this. Just wanna pour it out. Hais, things had been difficult for me. Trying to let go, trying to forget you. Trying to be happy all day, trying to be cheerful. But it still shatters my heart when i happen to go through things about you. Such as going to places that we used to be, which made me reminisce about our past. That gave my heart a stab. I guess what i needed most is time. Or i shall go to a place, and never return. People often say, theres better outside. But to me, you're already the best. If i cant get you, how do i get a better one? Hais, why my life have to be like this?

Solitary is just the word for me.
Takecare~
Goodnights.

Fun.

2009-12-21T23:23:00.003+08:00

Yo, its 23.23 now. (:

Went to hougang plaza with melvin and sam to actually play pool. But we ended up in the lan shop playing dota while waiting for Ck and co. Its full house and we went to makan after that. While waiting for the person to call, we went to void deck to gambleeeee. For quite long. Maybe 3 hrs? And i won like $2 == Yeezheng joined us shortly. Then, WE pangseh-ed sam and melvin as they want to gamble. And all of them fcuking put the blame on me. Sorry i'm not Akon. == lols. Went to eat dinner and went to carpark; rooftop to gamble again. This time i nvr play, only jisiao yixiang and sorts. hahahas. Went home after half an hour. Reached sengkang and it was raining heavily. Bo bian, walk loh. Managed to avoid the heavy rain and walk to the lrt. However, cj fell down. LOL!! He was like dancing in the carpark and he fell butt first to the ground. I was beside there laughing.! HAHAHHA!! Reach home shortly. Oh ya, i saw her!! Quite happy to see her, but quite sad to see her. Idk what am i talking. Okay neverminds. ._.

Should be downloading maple p/s to play with kevin and cj. Lols. See how bah~

Thats all folks. Sayo and nara~

Christmas is coming. Any plans?

Christmas!

2009-12-19T22:22:00.002+08:00

Hey, its 22.22 now!

Christmas is coming, have you chosen your present for your loved ones? Well, i have only one in my heart, and i already know what to give already. Hhahahas. Will you be surprised? I don't know. But everything is worth your smile. (:

Yeap, woke up at 13.30 and meet zankai at 14.30. Went to clarke quay with zankai and meet raph. Hang arounded at peninsula and zankai bought a shirt and he tio scam. LOL. The shirt was actually $15 but went zankai pay money, the person said its limited edition and it became $25!! WTF? Den we managed to bargain till $22. Lawls, poor zankai. After that, i bought 2 shirts and zankai bought another 2 shirts. Left peninsula shortly~

Hang around central and just sat down and talk, enjoy the wind and chill out. Quite nice yeah. The weather, the surroundings, the feelings. (: Its better to share ur thoughts than bottle it up right? Hhhaaahahahahs. All of us have problems uh.

To couples: ' Treasure her / him while you can. OR you will regret...'

Walk to plaza singapura and just hang around after that. Played arcade, and shopped around for raphael's things. Makan-ed and trained home.

Thats all folks.
It seemed like everyone is calling me to work.
Goddamnit!

Goodbye, peepos. Sayonara~

Will you still kiss me the same way?

2009-12-19T00:00:00.003+08:00

Hey, the time now is 00.00. Nice uh?!

hahhas, now waiting for dotaa. Bored eh? Holidays loh. Nothing to do. Dun ask me to find job or go to work. Its like, i go interview den nvr kena. Den so far away. Find also pek chek uh!! Vomit blood~

Alrights. Tomorrow going peninsula with zankaiii. Go buy thingss. Wheee!! Hahahhas. Thinking of what movies to watch later.. Hmmms. Any idea? Hahahhas.

Will you still kiss me the same. .? Just a random statement yeah, this is from the song 'The crimson' which sent chills down my spine. Idk why i will just randomly or suddenly thought of her. I'm trying very hard to control already. Wish me goodluck my friends, to forget her. However, I still wish that you can talk to me like last time. Ask me out, and slack together. But i guess its impossible. I need a time machine.. Where's Doraemon when i need him? ):

Alrights, guess most of you are already in bed or still sitting in front of the computer typing. Hmmms, for those who are still awake and will be awake will be classified in the same category as me, namely 'The owls!' hahahahs. Alrights.

Ending here. Goodnights earthlings. (:

Sayo and nara~

(:

2009-12-18T00:00:00.002+08:00

Woooo, the time now is 00.00!!

Hahhahas. Damn sian laaaa. Today went to trim my hair and went to Mustafa with chenjun and kevin to buy shoee. Yawns, now my fringe damn thin. goddamnit! T.T

Yawnssss, now watching Final destination 4. I'm so used to gore shows already! Nothing to do = watch moviesssssss. If not jiu shi dotaa dotaa dotaaaaaaa. Sian die me. T.T

I really have got nothing to do already. Do what also siannnn. Lets hope that gambler faster come back and we can 'open table'!! HAHhahahahhaas. Have fun!!

Alrights , thats all folks.
Have a nice dayyy. (:

Sayo and nara~~

Bon voyageee, friends.

2009-12-16T22:10:00.002+08:00

The time now is 10.10pm!. HAhahahs.

Sian leyyy, nobody pei me dota le.. ): Chenghan went to taiwan, yufei went to japan. Worst is, even gamble also cant!! Choonkiat went malaysia, Clarance went Korea. AHhhhhhhhhh, neverminds loh, dota myself. Maybe call other friends go out. Hahahhahas.

These few days keeep ton outside. Everyday gamble till morning den go home. Den sleep in the morning for consecutively 4 days le. And its like 7am, 8am. LOL. Den my parents keep kb me. Neverminds, they kb chenjun also. LOLOLOLOL.

So what am i gonna do today?
Namely:
-rot
-slack
-sleep
-dota
-gunbound [sharpen my skills]
- watch anime
-watch movies
-go out
-gamble

Hmmms, lemme consider first. Hahhahas. In a good mood today.

So... Grats guys, no more emo post to read. (:

Alrights, tagg more.

Lastly, wish yufei and clarance bon voyageeee! :DDD

Sayo and nara~~

Breakdown.

2009-12-14T21:21:00.003+08:00

The time now is 21.21

This post is for her. Sorry.

I've decided to let you go. I know its impossible to make you love me again. Or rather like me. You will never know, that i love you all these while. Though I managed to put it aside. Managed to suppress it. And keep it in my heart. Not letting anyone know. Its been long that I actually cried. So now, i gonna end this streak and continue posting with tears. Don't laugh at me. It's uncontrollable. People who been through this would know how it feels.

I know, there's someone you like. Or rather fond of. I noticed it. It hurts me. I kept it inside me. Not to let anyone worry. I don't need a listening ear, as it won't help at all. Luckily, theres vodka in my fridge. This would numb me temporary. At least for now. Now, i wish you all the best; for your future and your boyfriend. I may or may not exist in your life. I don't know. But you will definitely remain. In my heart, in my mind, in my eyes.

I don't know how to express this feeling by words. I only know i'm on the verge of breakdown. Despite this, i will still help you if you need. Accompany when you're lonely. And whatsoever. Its been 8 months and your scent continues to linger in my mind. I wonder how long would i need to forget you. Perhaps it takes forever? I don't know. I only know, i love you.

Your guardian angel.

When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok, it's ok, it's ok-a-e-a-e-ayyy.

and Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my-ay-ay, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and,
Please tell me you'll stay, woah stay woah

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

For you.
My beloved K-

Misses.

2009-12-14T17:17:00.002+08:00

The time now is 17.17.

Yawns. Just woke up not long ago. Gambled till morning and lost around $4? Neverminds. Just enjoy while we can.. Posting while waiting for dotaaaaaaaaa.

Idk what to post already. Idk what to do already.

Everything i do seemed insignificant to you.
Just wanna say, you are the only reason my heart beats.

Hope to have an outing later too. Chill out is better to emo at home. (:

gooodbye peeeps.

P/s: Tagg please. From what i know, alot of ppl read my blog. But nobody tag. ==

Sayo and nara. (:

:DDDDDDDDD

2009-12-11T02:02:00.004+08:00

The time now is 02.02 am!

Chenghan and kevin is staying over my house tonightttt. Yeah, zankai, francis, darren and Kimberly just go. Hahhahahs.

Back from sending her homeeeee. The walk home is scary can? Got some bell sounds and the lift no light, den suddenly have agn. Wtf. ;x

The time now is 4.44am!

Okayyyy, ordered mac delivery and now jus ate finish. hahhahahahahhas.

Hmmms, girl, i just can't bring myself to hug you. I don't know why.

I felt that i have no rights to do so.
I felt that you would reject me.
I felt that history would repeat itself again.
I felt that i would get hurt again.
I felt that I'm in no position to hug you again.
I felt that you wouldn't want me again.
I felt that i'm falling back down again.
I felt that i'm Lovedrunk again.
I felt that i'm missing you again.
I felt that i love you even more now.
I felt that i want you back now.
I felt that it is impossible for you to come back to me.

Whats wrong with me?
Sighhhs, neverminds.
I miss you, i love you.
Hope that you will understand,
that the feelings for you had never change.

Work!

2009-12-09T23:11:00.002+08:00

The time now is 11.11pm. (:

Yawnnnns..

Damn tired, back from first day of work. Yeah, went to JURONG to work. Fcking sia, the transport there alone took us 2hrs. == So, kevin decided to give up and find another job. LOL.

Things there are basically one word, boringgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg. Alrights, shall not further elaborate. I only know i'm veryyy tireddddd. ):

Alrights, now waiting for dotaaa as tmr will be a off day to celebrate francis's birthday!
Happpy birthdayy to youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu , GOH KIM SWEEEE. ;DDDDD

Sayo and nara ~

Happppppy.!

2009-12-09T00:32:00.002+08:00

The time now is 12.34am! Another beautiful time. hahahahs.

Alrights, damn happppppy! Of course, went out with her and my friends. Basically, i asked those gamblers to come out. After a while, she asked me out too! I wanna go out with her, and i cant make myself to reject her. But since i organised an outing, i cant pangseh my friends as well. So the conclusion is... All come out together. Social what. Hahhahahahs. (:

Just sent her home and now blogging. Wooots, damn happpy. Idk how to describe liao. :DDDDD

Anyway, tomorrow working liao! First day, hope it will be fine. Gooodluck to myself.!

Alrights, another day is goneeeeeee. I wanna go out with her again!!! (:

Sayo and nara guys. ~

P/s: I love you like i've always did. (:

Gamble!

2009-12-08T14:21:00.000+08:00

The time now is 2.22PM.

If you realise, i like to post during beautiful time, such as 11.11 or whatsoever. Hahahas, alrights. Harry just left my house, and i was woke up by him. Hmmmms, yesterday went to Mac's house for partyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. Gambled like fcuk and i won like fcuk. LOL. Okay, here comes the classic.

First round: yufei was the banker, den about 6 of us played blackjack. The bet was like $0.50 per game. In the end, first game i kena BLACKJACK, which is 21x!! So one round i won like $10.50!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOLOLOLOL. First time! HAHAHAHHA. Den they bu shuang, neverminds loh. Next round i be banker just to 'lose abit'. In the end, i be banker and i kena double Ace, which is 'banban'. And it was 3x, den it was like collect $1.50 from all of them each. So ... $1.50 x 5 = $7.50. Den $10.50 + 7.50 = $18 !! LOLOLOLOL. hahhahahaahhahha. 2 rounds win $18. Imba. ahhahahahs.

Okay, enough of gamblinggggggggggggg. Erm, whats next? maybe lets talk about her. Hmmms, she talked to me!! Omg, so happy la. Finally man! But i wanted more... ): Its normal as human is greedy yeah. OF course i want her, but it seems like it is impossible. I miss you. ):

Alrights, gonna go sleep agn! Goodnights and sweet dreams. (:
Sayo and nara~

Back!

2009-12-07T01:08:00.001+08:00

The time now is 1.11am.

Back from thailand; bangkok. Hahhahas, had fun there of course! Bought some presents for my dear friends, hope you guys like it. Those who dun have please dun blame me! I cant possibly buy like 20+ presents right? ;x

Alrights, had half a cup of absolut vodka and now sitting in front of the com waiting for dota-mates to get their job done. The vodka was just to clear my thoughts and keep me warm. No worries! (:

Tomorrow will be a party!! Hmmmms, before that, i've gotta go a job interview with yongquan. Was thinking what to wear sia. Hahhahahs. Maybe formal shirt + long pants? Or polo tee + berms. Hmmmms, shall consider tmr.

Yeah, I still misses her. But like how i always console my friends? I'll now tell myself that it is useless. Don't give up the whole forest for a tree? Yeah, but my face ... Neverminds. lols.

Hmmmms, back to the topic; bangkok! It is fun and the things there is cheapppp. You can like buy a shirt for $4 while singapore is like $15? And, there is lots of trannies there.! OMFG, got some is like, change body but didn't change their face. WTF RIGHT? Okay nvm. Erm, still got some interesting things like my hotel... And one more classic! When i was going home from changi airport, i took a cab and it was driving in he highway. But suddenly ... it punctured!! Den we're like carrying the luggages in the middle of highway and waving for cab. LOL. First time in my life sia.! Hahhahahahhas. Joke~

Alrights, ending here. No photos for you guys as i didn't go for sceneries but shopping! So... Goooodbyeeeee. (:

P/s: Hope my interview goes well~~

Travel!

2009-12-01T02:23:00.000+08:00

Last post before i leave Singapore for Thailand!!

Yeah, these days are nothing special except for gambling and gambling.

Just back from gambling with yufei and zankai. Of course i won! ;X

Hmmmmms, tomorrow will be going to thailand for 5 days and will reach singapore by saturday night. (:

Peeps, dun miss me! Hahhahahahs.

Bon voyage to myself and michelle, ;x

AND AND AND,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE KEVIN!!!!

I CANT CELEBRATE WITH YOU BUT I WILL BUY SOMETHING FOR YOU!

生日快乐，圆圆 xD

Sayo and nara!~

Happy birthday, 飞

2009-11-27T16:07:00.000+08:00

Happy belated birthday yufei.
Went to fei's birthday party earlier, reached home about 5+. Bathed and slept at 6+, woke up at 1+. Lazy post about yufei's party le, i guess others are posting it too. Just blog-hop abit and you'll know what happen. (:

Alrights, ppl are drinking to numb themselves. To me, i know they got problems, but drinking never helps. Maybe for a moment but the after-effect will cause more problems than what you think. See-ng my friends getting drunk one after another. Guess what? I want to drink too. I want to numb myself, but i know it doesn't help. Sighhs. Same as all of you, i have my problems too. I may look cheerful on the outside but in fact, i'm on the verge of breakdown. I miss her, no doubts. Anyway, for people like yongquan(especially), harry , chenjun, even chenghan. I guess they will understand it too. It is really very xinku. Yeah, i want her back. But i doubt she would even remember me? Sorry for being so emo and sorts, but i kept this for around 8 months already. I wanna let it all out, to make myself feel better.

I need a knife. Or a blade. Just sharp edges will do. Enough to slice through my skin, to my flesh. I cant find ways to relieve myself anymore. Although having heart-to-heart talk does help a little, it still cant bring her back. But still, thanks, my friends. Having you guys around, i'm blessed.

Girl, are you happy now? How are you? Is he caring and sweet enough? Or are you single? Don't skip your meals alrights? Take good care of yourself.

I miss you, i love you.
I can't forget you,
Not because i dowan,
but my heart... Your name, was engraved in my heart.
You're too good to be true.
Too good... for me.

I'm inconsolable, i'm sorry.
Thank you for your efforts, i appreciated.

.

2009-11-26T15:42:00.000+08:00

Sweetheart,

I miss you.

I miss you.

I miss you.

Were the last words that i wrote for you, enough to tell you how i feel?
I still miss you, i still love you. I still want you, i still need you.
Or am I just a silhouette that past by your life.
Take good care of yourself.
I love you and goodbye.

For my dearest love,
K-

Ton.

2009-11-23T02:48:00.000+08:00

hey peeepos, back from slacking with yufei zankai and kevin.

Was discussing about playing one new game together. Yeah, damn interesting. Watched a trailer about w3k and was quite interested about it. Maybe ltr discuss with them again. Hahahs.

Gonna ton today? Aiya, i everyday also 4+ 5 den sleep, all also counted as ton le. Lols, so tomorrow any activities? Bored bored and bored~

Anyway, i wonder if she's doing fine. Damn long nvr really talk to her already. Of course shes always in my heart. But i decided not to bother her and interup her life, so i guess i shall stop here. And again, i miss her. Yeap, but it shall again, remain in my heart. Take good care of yourself silly. (:

Okays, stopping here. My throat's getting dry and i'm coughing like nobody's business. Shit, the bbq how? Lets see how it goes.

Goodnights peeps. Have an early night.

I miss you.

2009-11-22T02:23:00.000+08:00

Dearest love,

I hope this message finds you well.
As this endless thoughts drips from my soul.
Every word secretly paints a fairytale of when we will melt into one.

Eyes forfeit sight to the pain.

tear at my very core as i cling my memories of you.

Were the last words that i wrote for you,

enough to tell you that in my death,

the light that shone through my painful darkness,

was a blinding vision of your eternal smile?

Is me again?

Is it me or am i wrong to be concerned?

Will the beauty of your lips,

ever cross my eyes again?

Was this all a lie?

Why?!

If my words even reach you, i'll assume you don't care.

You never knew that silence could cut so deep.

Or that you could twist the blade?

Now i hate all your beautiful lies.

I don't know what happened.
Who would have thought my life would end up like this?
I never even got the chance to see her face,
or to touch her hair.
And now it's too late.
I didn't mean to hurt her,
not hurt her like this.
I can't feel my legs,
and I can't even cry
How could someone be gone like this?
Who would have though my life would end up like this?
Make it stop,
Make this pounding in my head stop.
Fill my lungs with air.
Give me one more day to make her dreams come true.

She understands right?
That I'm not coming back.

Never again.

I love you and goodbye.

Gg-ed

2009-11-21T16:01:00.001+08:00

Hey guys, i'm back. I just woke up!! HAHHAHAHAA.

Okay, yesterday went to play pool with zankai kevin and chenghan. After that, meet yongquan at 188 bball court and played basketball. Muhahahahas. Zankai went off for his LRT and he realise it is closed. LOL. Yongquan also went off after that and i called yufei down.

Now left me chenghan yufei and kevin. Woooots. Played 'True or Dare' but only got true. Hahahhahas, know lots of things from this 3 peeeeeps and they know lots of things about me tooo. *It was because i damn suay. ==* Hahahhas, yeap. Played till 3+ and yufei went off. Kevin cabbed home and chenghan cycled me home. FUN FUN FUN!! ;DDD

So reach home + bathe all this should be around 4+ den sleeeeep. Yeah, so late sleep again right? Dun laugh, cos i am sick now. LOL. Throat infection + running nose. Goddamnit. Neverminds. Now nothing to do and so posting!~

Alrights, ending here. Hope that everyone could stay in contact and may all problems be sorted out. Since the chapter is already ending yeah? Hahhahas.

All the best to all for 12 january 2010. ^^

Stayover!

2009-11-20T10:25:00.000+08:00

Back from Harry's house! Haaahahahhas. Stayed over at his house with yufei chenjun and choonkiat. WHeeeeee, fun time! Yongquan went off first, siannnnn. Lols, and after that we went to Jalan Kayu for breakfast. Now back home and just done bathing. Second day nvr go home sleeep. hahahahahas. Yufei, now wanna go whoseeee house to stayover? LOL. Quickly decide and call me!! I'm on for everything. Hhahhahahahhahahaaahahhas. Fun fun! xD

Gonna go sleep sooon. Hmmms, i will not on Silent mode. Any outings or what just text / call me yeah. Goooodnights. ^^v

Shall update at night. Provided i went out again. ^^v

Prom!!

2009-11-19T19:03:00.000+08:00

Wheeee, back from Hotel stay. Hhahhaas, tired la, no doubts. ==

Okay, starting was Prom night. Thanks to Cj's dad for fetching us go, and we had fun there. It started off well and ended like shit, thanks to some idiots. == Yeah, after that followed Melvin and co. to orchard road for shopping and stuffs, in the end was just strolling around. Ended up buying alcohol thanks to Andy. Reached the Hotel and started drinking. ~

I was drunk at first, all was drunk including Melvin, chenghan, raphael. But we managed to suppress it and left 3 ppl drunk, namely Yufei, Mac and joey. Joey was the most troublesome one. *Lazy to further elaborate*. Mac was just crying herself out, while yufei was walking around talking nonsense. LOL. Yufei was the cutest of all. Hhahahhas. Anyway, can see that yufei got some problems, so YUFEI!! FEEL FREE TO CONTACT ME FOR A HEART TO HEART TALK!! Hahahahahas.

After that, yongquan and chenjun was worried abt us and they came to find us. So we spent our time mostly on controlling them and stuffs. Dean and co. joined us and all of us was resting in the hotel. All of us were dead tired as they were really crazy when they're drunk. Afraid that they would do something wrong, we would have to follow them all the while. After entertaining them for like 3 hrs or so, they FINALLY gotten down. Then, we rest and most of us fell alseep, except for yongquan and dean ( the 2 most noisiest ). LOL. I rested for like half an hour and started to talk and just rest instead of sleeping like the others. When its like 8 + 9 in the morning, i wash-ed up and prepared to go off. Choonkiat was not feeling well so me yongquan and chenjun sent him home first. We took cab and took care of choon kiat at chenjun's house. We left after like 30 mins. Reach home and waited for chenghan to come collect his stuffs. In the end, he left his bag here. ==

Alrights guys. Moral of the story: 借酒消愁 is seriously bullshit. Alcohol cant help but make it worst. I guess you guys should understand already.

If any of you feel bad or sad. Just contact me. I seriously don't mind going down to talk in the middle of the night. hahahahs, so dun be shy. ^^ My phone is 24/7. Feel free to call me! ;D

This shall be the most memorable Prom night ever. Like a Scar, left inside my album named 'Memories'. Hope that i can stay contact with you guys forever. BFF ! ;DDDDDD

Prom.

2009-11-17T23:46:00.001+08:00

Wheeeee, tomorrow is prom liao. Looking forward to it. Hahahas.

Basically, went out all day and dota dota dota. This is the days after O levels. Hahhahahas.

And i really very lazy to post liao. Gonna stop here? Maybe. Shall update after Prom!! :DDD

Does we really need to dance? o.O

Hhahahhas, kkays stop here.

And to that spammer: Get a life la, you got balls you write your name la, keyboard warrior only. Retarded.

Screwed

2009-11-15T02:53:00.000+08:00

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, now posting while zankai is sleeping and kevin is bathing. LOL. yeah they came to my house to stayover night because they say its too late and no more bus. ==

Anyway, today was quite fun. Watched SAW 6 with chenghan and chenjun as they came over to my house. Bought tibits and sorts and enjoyed. Its still gore, no doubts. == After that, zankai called me and sayed what jing ji shi jian. In the end is they wanna lend broom because they created a mess at the void deck. Played wax to celebrate ashley's birthday and also to surprise her. Hahhas, anyway Happy birthday ashley!! ^^v Den they went to my house loh. Kevin played dota and zankai slack around. Lols, today dunnid sleep le. T.T Can you imagine 2 fcking big size sharing a small sized bed with me? Screw them!! HAHHAHAHAHAS.

Yeah, later gonna dota with those usual people. Since i cant sleep, they cant sleep too! xDDD Hahhahahahas, waiting for chenghan~~ Yawnnnns, stupid kevin and zankai. hahahs.

Anyway, prom is coming! And alot of people dyed their hair, wooots damn cool. Hahahahs, of course i'm included. xD Okay thats all for today. I guess kevin's back sooon. It shall be a secret between us. :X Zipppped~

Goodnights and sweet dreams all! Have an early night, and remember to leave a tag! The more the merrier. Muahhahahahas, TAG HOR. ^^v

Sayo and nara ~

Red is the new black.

2009-11-13T20:55:00.001+08:00

Boooo, hahahhas. Highlight le, wheeeeee. :D Red is the new black. ^^

Okay, went to raph teacher's salon for trimming and colouring. Chenghan trimmed. I trimmed + highlight. Raph trimmed + dye, and same for melvin. Hahhahahs, dun call me gangster cos i'm not. == 100% guaikia. ^^

Wow, now gonna dota with those usual peeps. Hahhahas, fun fun. I love holidays!! ;DDDDD

Anyway, chenghan was late again. Damn it. Melvin was late too. Den like delay all of us. LOL. SCREW YOU 2.

Hahahas, i think thats all for today. Nothing much to post too. Looking forward to prom yeah. ^^

Thats all folks, gooodbye. :D

~

2009-11-12T11:27:00.000+08:00

Hmmms, i wonder if somebody will wear some clothes as me? If its real, it will be damn joke. LOLS. Going out sooooon. Shall update when i come back. Stay tuned. :D

Backkkkkkkkkkk. Hahhahahas. Fun day yeah.

Okay, met wangleng and chenghan and trained to orchard to find yufei and guowan. We look for them for like 45mins and we are still lost! Lost in singapore, what a joke. LOL. Okay, den yufei BTH and came to find us. Trained to Far East to look for their clothes. Choosing here and there and me, yufei and guowan just simply give comments, hahahahas. After that, saw ashley and joey. What a small world. == Then wangleng decided on his, and chenghan bought his shoes. Chenghan had an idea what to get tooo. So maybe next time we go again since i nid my pants. ==

After that, joey and ashley joined us as their clique needa go home for 'curfew'. So hanged around and walked to cinnileisure(idk hw spell ==). Wangleng went home and we fooled around and decided on a movie 'My girlfriend is an agent'. Quite funny la, ahhahas. Then during the movie got 2 person called me. Namely yongquan and raphael. LOL. Hanged around again and guowan stayed to meet his parents while we walked home.

After that, trained to compass and we splitted.~ Chenghan cycled me home and we went to rivervale mall for my dinner. Talked and he cycled me home. Hahhahahas, he borrowed history textbook from me to broaden his 'war knowledge'. LOL. Hahhahahs. Now posting and i'm dead tired. Its like slept for only 7 hours and walked the whole day for consecutive 2 days. T.T

So ... I GONNA SLEEP NOW!! :DDDD

Gooodnights peeps. I'm only taking a nap and will be staying up quite late for some 'research'. ^^
Btw, i pangseh-ed yongquan and zankai co. because i'm really too tired. SORRY PEEEPOS. T.T Promise you next time will join you all. :D

Okay, stopping here. Finally a long post, xD Tomorrow going out agn, wheeeeee can dye hair. Happy happy! Looking forward to tomorrow!

Byeee guys, sayo and nara. :D

OVER~

2009-11-11T23:42:00.000+08:00

Nice? I'm the photographer.^^

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVERRRRRRRRRRRR.!!!!! HAHAHHAAHS.
SHUANGNESS. Okay nvm, after the science MCQ which i find it quite okay. Think can get around 33 / 34? Yupp. After that, went to yeezheng house to slack around and play some cardgames. HAhahhas, had fun there. Anyway, gooodluck to all BIO students tomorrow!! ^^v

Chenghan cycled me home and we went to prepare for another outing. Went to compass to meet Francis and waited for chenghan. Saw vivian , natalia and gerald heng. What a small world. ==

Met and we went to Kovan for pooooool. Had fun joy and laughter. Hahahhas. Went home and now blogginggg.

Tomorrow going out again!! Hahahahs, Song ahhhhh. And friday i want go Raphael Shifu SALON!! I WANT DYE HAIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. T.T
Yongquan want join us? Hahaahhas.

KKays, now deciding on the outings for tmr and friday. LETS HAVE FUN NOWWWW~~ ^^

Alrights, gotta go dota soooon. Sayonara guys.

BTW: What colour should i dye? Still thinking~~~~~ Hahahahs.

Comments on the cBox please. Tagggggg too~ ^^v

Gooodnights. :DDDD

Ending soon.

2009-11-10T15:09:00.000+08:00

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, chinese paper is down. Lols, left the last paper which is science MCQ tomorrow and it is officially the end of O levels.

Anyway, its like lots of people are not going for prom night. Go leh, last gathering le sia. Sian la.~ Yawnnnns, nothing much to post. I think many people is studying bah. Coool, goodluck and all the best to all~ ^^

Full metal alchemist is loved. <3 ^^v

Trying to keep this post longer, lols. Anyway, tag peeps. Nobody tag de leh. Dun make me close this agn. :X

Alrights, gotta goooo,
Sayo and Nara. ^^

Tragedy

2009-11-08T19:19:00.000+08:00

YOOO PEEEPOOOOS.
Now playing dota while saving time to blogggg. Hahahs, today is a tragedy larhhs. Fell down while my friend was 'longpang-ing' me. Den now leg got more scars. Damned. Then it was pain and i was like dancing in the bathroom while i'm bathing. LOLLLLLLL

Now hor, please tag more leh. Like damn ulu loh my blog. Emo~~ Oh ya, 3 more days and we're officially freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Hahhahahs, anyone wanna go prom night with me and francis? Its not nice to go alone. ;X
Interested please leave ur name. Not interested please leave a tag. LOLL

KKays, game start liao. Gotta go offf. Byeeee. :D

PS: why my post so short ah? ;X

Satisfied.

2009-11-07T19:27:00.001+08:00

Wheeeee, back from bugis with francis. Hahahas, went to buy clothings and prom night outfits. Managed to find one for myself and francis bought 3 shirts too. Anyway, must thank nicholas(messy shop owner) for helping me to choose. ^^

Now francis is staying at my house till 11+ probably. Gotta watch movie already. I guess thats all. Anyway, i can help some people to choose they prom night outfits if they need help. Contact me anytime. ^^v

Alrights, still got chinese O levels and science MCQ but i guess everyone is already in holiday mood(including myself). Hahahhahs, no choice, we suffered the whole year already. Enjoy abit won't hurt right? ^^

Okays, goodluck all for your last paper. Goooooooooodbyeeeeee. :DDD

Wooots/

2009-11-06T14:31:00.000+08:00

Okay larhhs, after yufei told me to blog, i decided to blog!!

Hahhahas, O levels was quite okay, but some careless here and there. And dnt was quite screwed. Hope to score at least a B for that.

Anyway, i had been dota-ing everyday!! OMGOMG, never really go prepare for chinese. Aiya neverminds. Hahahahas.

Oh yea, who wanna dota please leave your name, THANKS. ^^

And those who happened to past by please leave a tag. Will appreciate. :D

PS: All the best for chinese O levels and Science MCQ. ^^

Speechless

2009-09-06T23:16:00.000+08:00

I don't know how to start . I think this post is to vent my anger .

Now , my computer is a fcuking piece of thrash . Auto - restart . Lanjiao grphic . Blue screen . And it all happeneds after numerous RE FORMATTING . It totally pissed me off when my mom even have to considerate so long just to buy me a cpu . Whats more is this . They changed a hard disc for me , hoping to cure everything . In the end just 5 mins after the technician left , auto restart happened . Blue screen occured . And graphic is so much worst . The most cool thing is this . It can auto play songs when no programme is on . And is 2 songs together . DAMN COOL RIGHT ? I bet nobody's com can ever do this . So now what ? Tomorrow RE FORMATTING AGAIN . And my parents BLAMES me for spoiling the whole com . Cool . Now everything is my fault . Everything gotta re download again . Yeah , they even scolded me for putting up an angry face for them . So , do i have to act happy when i'm so pissed off and fcuking annoyed ? Alrights , lets put it this way . If earlier , i get to buy a new com while my sis gets the old one , will this happen ? I bet they will just buy her another one . Wow , bias isn't it ? Yeah . Just because her results is better then mine ? Damn cool . Guess what . Tomorrow they gonna FIX this shit again . Shit + paper = ? Shit + gold = ? Still shit right ? Fcuk . They just don't fcuking understand .

Alrights . Nothing better to say anymore . i guess no words can express my anger . Now my ipod is far better then this thrash .

Maybe in their eyes , cheap is better than expensive . And daughter is better then son .
Yeah . Generations changed . Its the opposite for zhong nan qing nu already . Guys , dun blame me for not being very happy in school tomorrow .

End-

==

2009-09-05T13:50:00.000+08:00

Okay . After some reflections . I gonna stop everything here .
I'm not gonna love you .
I'm gonna like you as a friend .
I'm not gonna want you .
I'm not gonna lose you as a friend .
I'm gonna wish you goodluck for your papers , friend .
And all the best for your o levels .
I'm gonna cheer you up when you're down . In the position of a brother .
I'm gonna wish you all the best for your boy . ^^

Okay , i'm gonna clearify now .
There's NOTHING between me and her .
We're just more than normal friends .
And i dare to say she's one of my best friends .
Yupps . During few days . I admit i liked her .
But its just a crush .
And now the feelings is just friends . Or perhaps best friends .
So ...

Wish that we can stay in contact after o levels . And its difficult to find someone with the same ******** . Hahhahas .
Goodluck niwt . ^^v

AND GUYS !!
NO MORE WHATSOEVER INCEST !! ROARS .

And take care , best friend ; niwt . <-- copy from you . ;x

lil disappointment ~

2009-09-04T15:15:00.000+08:00

Hey all , was mapling and came to blog . ^^

Yupps . Dnt was overrrrrr . Wheeee~ Anyway , quite confident for that paper and my efforts sorta paid off for studying till 1am last night . ;x

The two written papers left are physics paper and math paper 2 . Then left 2 practical paper which is of course chemistry and physics la . hhahahs . Damn shaung la . Got a few days break and can slack for a while . Shuang - ness !~~~

Anyway , i got a feeling that you're avoiding me . Hmmms , 是我想太多了吗？可能吧 . Please don't okay ? I guess you didn't . Don't worry , We won't proceed any furthur . Or maybe its impossible ? I guess is the latter . Yupps . Perhaps , staying as best friends would be the ideal choice . Don't you agree ? (: Even though i'm betraying my heart now , i guess i'll no other choice but to do so . ^^ Nowadays you seemed moody . Cheerups okayss ? See liao also heart pain . And hor , text me more often !! Your messages are getting lesser and lesser . Maybe thats the cause of the downfall in your mood ? Hahahas . Text me la . I'm sure i can cheer you up . Or if you don't want , at least smile more often . So that it won't be so pain for me at least . Lastly , goodluck for your next paper(s) !! ^^
SMILE !~

Hahhas . Oh ya peeepos , tag more often leh . I came back to posting liao but no people come liao . Ke wu . ==

Okays . Gotta go slack le .

Sayo and NARA !! ^^v

I miss you ... i really do . Will you ever notice ?

^^

2009-09-03T17:39:00.001+08:00

Back from a short nap . Wow , since like i'm into blogging and napping these few days . Hahahs .

O ya btw , chemistry and e.math paper 1 just ended . Chemistry is a just pass paper i think . Or even fail . Ahhhhhh , studied but too bad , too unlucky . 运气也是实力的一种 , 太倒霉了 . ==

Alrights , speaking about e.maths , i am quite confident in that paper . Think can get a B bah . But but , i just found out that i got 2 wrong . 1 is wrong and another is careless . Forget change the polygon ratio to simpliest form . !@#$%^ lols . Again , 运气也是实力的一种 , 太倒霉了 . ;X

Okay , dnt paper tomorrow . Hmmmms , later then study bah . Should be studying after resting and my dinner .

Gotta keep this post short or it'll be too wordy .

Sayo and nara . ^^

Sick

2009-09-02T15:34:00.001+08:00

Wooots , history and chinese is over .

Nothing much to talk about today . Went for lunch with twin yufei melvin raphael and shuhao . Yupps . Bought some stuffs and went to rivervale mall after being psycho-ed by melvin . But neverminds , never regret . ^^

After swallowing some medicines and i'm tired and weak . So vulnerable .. Wake up after nap and will study chemistry . Followed by practicing some math i think .

Alrights , gotta go off now .

Nothing much to talk about and my eyes is closing .

Guys , i don't have any 'sleeping disorder' . ^^

Sayo and nara~

Woooooots~

2009-09-01T11:42:00.002+08:00

Yo guys , i'm posting !!~ What a miracle , lawls .

Okay , i gonna reformat computer once again , due to too many thrash and sorts . Graphic card can't support maple . X.X

Anyway , quite alot of things happen too . Usually , things happen but we don't really know why . We can't control everything too ~ So just accept it , and think for the correct way to react . ^^

Quite random , hahhas i know la . Yawns , tomorrow history prelims . Muz study around 16 essays . == And muz get A1 or tio gan by mr P Tan ~

Yupps , i crushed someone . However , i've decided not to confess or what . Just keep everything to myself uh . Good for both you and me since you already got a guy . (: I shall concentrate on 'O' levels first . ^^ Or maybe its just a simple crush that will disappear after some days ? Maybe ...? Hahhahas , and you don't emo le la . Not good for health . Lastly , wish that you can always SMILE , and all the best for prelims and 'o' levels , yupps .And finally , last long with him . (:
我想你一定很累了，因为你在我脑海里跑了好久，好久 ...

最后，我祝每位亲爱的老师教师节快乐。
没有你们，我们都不能进步，更别想要考到好成绩了。
有了你们，好成绩都伸手可得，都是因为你们的努力和对我们的信任
你们为了我们的成绩付出了很多，我想我们这辈子都还不了吧
所以我唯一能说的只是谢谢，谢谢你们。
我也知道，我们全都累了。
这个路途只剩下不到三个月，请你们不要放弃，我们也会更努力。
我们绝对不会对不起你们。
同时也会让你们骄傲。 ^^

Specially for :
Mr Philip Tan
Mr Cheong Si Sien
Mdm Lim Li Yen
Mr Stephen Low
Mrs Haffidz
Mr Tan Teck Meng
Mr Ong Kai Wei
Miss Farah

Happy teachers day !!
Thanks and i love you all ~

Finally , to all my friends and to her :
goodluck and all the best for prelims and of course , o levels . ^^

E

2009-08-07T22:36:00.000+08:00

hellos .

Basically , watched G.I.Joe with melvin and yufei . Raphael , mich and her co . Watched UP . At first , i tot its some interesting movie , and i told yufei that we can consider . In the end , yufei told me to go cathay on net to see , and i realise its a CARTOON . lols , wtf . Laughed , and no choice . Watched ourselves then .

Nothing much to elaborate . Smuggled food into the cinema as usual . Joked around as usual . Hahahs , fun time though .

Thinking about the long weekends , is shuang .
Thinking about the work ... F***

lols , okay .

Anyway , i'm trying to change for the better . So friends , don't drift away alrights ? Its like 4 more months and we'll bid farewell . Hope to keep some precious content for my book , titled 'Secondary School Memories' . ^^
If you find that i have some problems , feel free to tell me . I'll change also . And and , give me some time . :X
Thats all . Hope that all friends conflict can be solved , and stay together as one , 4Express'09 .
<3 | Love you guys . (:

Sayo and nara . :D

D

2009-08-05T20:46:00.000+08:00

Second post of the day .

Felt so relieved when i apologized to them and reflected and my mistakes . Hopefully this will end by the end of this week . And when cj come back , we'll have stronger bond . ^^

All the best for design & technology students . Good luck , and hope to catch that thief . Some of you know . :X

One more thing , please forgive me if i indirectly hurt you . I didn't meant to .

All the best for prelims as well !! ^^

C

2009-08-05T19:39:00.000+08:00

Today was quite a normal day ~

Basically , nothing much . Normal lessons and a surprise test for SS . Omg , really so surprise , and after that was history test . Then copied history seq , so overall did around 4-5 essays ? Yupp , around there .

After that was maths . Looked at testimony and did some math questions . Went for dnt next . Did some normal drawings and mr ong came 'spying' for us . Checking for us if we've completed our dnt practical . Hahhas . Quite funny though .

Went home after that . Yawns , very tired .

After reflecting , i'm in the wrong . Its my bad for causing everything . But seems like its too late to apologize . And i didn't use my friends . They are still my friends including you two . I don't want anymore enemies . I want back the times when we had fun , when we really enjoyed ourselves and treat each other as best friends . I admit i became more self-centered and stubborn . Will you guys accept me back into your clique ? I guess its impossible ... and , i'm sorry . I'll change .

Gonna start my work now , goodbye .

B

2009-08-05T10:32:00.000+08:00

Missed class as was sick today .

Basically , did nothing much during the 'free time' . Was sleeping all the while and did some dnt . No strength to do other things yeah . History test tomorrow , and was still feeling dizzy , how to study ? Hmmmms .

Currently brainstorming on my dnt's cover page . Had some designs , but seems not very practical . So still working on it . Hope to finish this anyway . Nothing much to post also .

Anyway , nowadays the trend is to scold people on their blog . As for me , even though i don't like someone and sorts , i didn't post it up . Just drift away from you and make myself comfortable . However , i think that it is not right to scold others on your blog yeah . Its not a good habit . Okay , i gotta stop here , or i will step into the trend as well .

Its just a comment , don't take it too seriously . ^^

Gotta go . Bye .

PS: Recover asap for those who are sick these few days . ( including myself ) . (:

A

2009-08-04T10:36:00.000+08:00

Hey all ,
as this is new so i'll have to update more . X.X

Alrights , today school was normal . Tiring though . Anyway , its common to feel that way .
Dnt right after curriculum hours . Assembled stuffs but was annoyed by those lil problems here and there . Roars .

After that , went to compass with Francis to buy my stuffs . Spent some money and went home . Now blogging and resting . Giving myself to 8 , i'll have some time to continue my Twilight !! ^^ Shuang-ness . Hahahhas , but thinking about tomorrow's activities , consisting of some oral presentations and history really drowned me . Felt like skipping school tomorrow as i'm currently not feeling very well . Felt dizzy and vomiting . Maybe same as yufei; food poisoning ?

Argh , O levels around the corner , why am i still so slack ? Crap , gotta change this mindset as soon as possible . Muz study all the way !!

Alrights , gotta go now . Should not be spending too much time on blogging . By the way , if you happen to pass by here , remember to leave a tag . So wulu can ? ;X

Some updates for myself :
Dnt journal . ( presentation board )
English research(s) ( Magic booklet )
History test , rise of hitler .

That should be all , goodbye . ^^

Hey yo .

2009-08-02T22:52:00.000+08:00

This will be new blog yeah .

Thanks to Jasmine , she helped me alot .

Owe you pocky yeah . ^^

This will be a short post . Just to test , and i'm still thinking of my blog link . ;OO

Cant find any suitable or maybe cant find any that i like .

Should be killing my brain cells now .

Gotta go , byeee . ^^

2009-08-02T21:15:00.001+08:00

Testing testing :P