Drunk.
0707pm, 晴天
Went to buangkok with lots of my friends that day. I actually promised not to drunk so as to take care of you all. But i guess i'm the one who is the worst bah. This is the first time i'm drunk, am i scary? Did i said alot of things? Or did alot of things? I dun know. All i know is that i vomitted for goddamn dunno how long and it felt like my heart is coming out also. Went to see doctor the day after and he scolded me for drinking so much despite my gastric problems. LOL. Thats why i only vomitted but did not have any headache. And perhaps, its my old gastric problems that cause me all this. Luckily nothing actually happened to us, and the police is good enough to let us go. And also, i wanna thank those people who took care of me, people like dean and choonkiat. And maybe some others that i dun remember. Just wanna say, thank you.
Anyway, I was damn sad that day, and kept on asking yongquan to go to punggol with me. I remembered this. And i missed her, but i didn't have the courage to text her like what my buddy did. Yeah, i'm afraid that she wouldn't even remember me, and she'll hate me. Flashbacks of her made my heart ache. I don't know if i cried that day, i only know that i wanna see her for once, just once and it will make me happy. However, in my state that day, i dun think i can even walk. I dun know what had happened to me, what i know is that i still love her. It had been a year already and i dunno if i can forget her when i go into poly. Neverminds, i guess the night in buangkok made me cleared my sorrows. I felt much better now, and i guess i would try to let her go, even though it is difficult, i will still try. As holding on to her wouldn't bring her back. Right?
Girl, what drug had you gave me? Its so addictive...
Anyway, Thank you for leaving all this sweet memories in my life. You will always remain in my heart. I dun mind if you had already forgotten me, i just hope that what you once said is real. I love you and i will do everything just to bring you back. But nothing could be done right? Just wish that you can live your life happily, please take care of yourself and dun make me worry. Hope that you can last long with a guy you truly love. Everything you gave me is still perfectly fine, and i kept it with me all these while. I am waiting for a chance to show you, that this is what you gave to me, handwritten by you. And i hope that you still have it with you; everything i gave you, handwritten by me. Goodbye my love, you left a scar on me, one that cannot be forgotten.
I handed you a knife and my heart, and now the dream is over...
For my love,
K-
And to all my friends, thanks for the concern. I'm alrights, just a little not feeling well. Are you guys okay too? Hope so. And just hope to stay in contact as long as possible. Thanks for being there for me, i appreciated. And you guys stay happy too.
Is this a nightmare? Is my K- really gone?
Please wake me up, please wake me...
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