Time: 20:52
Mood: Bored
Music: Dignity - Bullet for my Valentine

Blogging since i had the free time while waiting for a game. Lets chat about my life, shall we? Hahaha, this would be a happy post! :D

Anyway, its two weeks past YOG Holiday and i haven't start my revising for my final exams. Nevermind, i shall use the study break wisely. hahaha. Also, i had been rotting my days away with dota, poker cards and sleeping. LOL! Just don't feel like studying yeah? Hhahahaha.

Since i don't really have a topic to post about, this shall be a random post! Alright, tomorrow will be yongquan's birthday and we will be having a gathering! Omg, can't wait. Hahahah, gonna stay outside till morning yeah? Looking forward to it. (:

Alright, since doggy fei is watching anime and doggy han is eating, i shall do something else too. I can't think of things to keep this post any longer. Hmmms, guess i shall end here? Since nobody really read it anyway. X.X

To you guys: If you happen to be reading this, please leave a tag alright. It at least gave me a reason to keep this blog alive. Or it just seemed like i'm talking to myself. lol~

Alright, ending here. Take care all~
Good-bye~ :D

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Mood: Bored, normal.
Current Music: So Far Away - Avenged Sevenfold
Time: 00.04

In the mood to post, or rather to type words into sentences. So without further ado, i shall begin with something random, special.

Life
Life is something everyone knows, or rather everyone is experiencing. People have different perspective towards life. Some hates life, some adores life , some just don't give a fuck and carry on with their life.

Why a portion of the people in this world hates life? I guess they perceive life as something boring, or rather meaning-less. Ask yourself, 'Why do you live to die?' Such as you were borned, you lived, wasted so much time, and in the end you still have to die. So where do we go when we're dead? What will be the world for us? An afterlife? Which the cycle repeats? It do sounds boring. Maybe thats the reason? Or maybe they can't get what they desire in life? Such as wealth, freedom, or even love? Some was even borned to suffer. Without some of their limps, or even lack of intelligence. I guess i've covered all the reasons?

So why do another portion of the population in this world adores life? If you notice, poor people lived happily. Why? Because their life is simple. No high end technology like computers, facebooks, iPhones . No games like dota, starcraft. No communication devices and transport like handphones, MRT. So how they communicate? Simply by shouting. How they past their time? By playing simply games, five stones, hopscotchs. How they travel around places? By walking. These are all attributes and elements of life that had been forgotten when technology improves. Countries that couldn't catch up with technology would land into the 'third world' .Where their lives would be the simpliest. Without proper clothings, food, and even shelters. And they continued their life. Whereas for humans living in countries like Singapore, with beautiful environment, well established shelters, and delicious cuisines. And yet, they hate their life. Some even committed suicide, just because they met obstacles in life. Or even their desires are not fulfilled.

Whereas for me, I belong to the category of 'I don't give a fuck, and i'm gonna carry on this shit'. Though Life can be a bitch, just live with it as nothing can be done to change the fact right? Actually, life can be exciting if you look it on another angle. So yeah, there are things i want to fulfill before my life end too. I'm not gonna list everything out and i hope that everyone out there are living their life to the fullest. So if Life is really a bitch, be a dick and screw it. HEHE! Just a joke. :D

Hope everyone will enjoy their life and take care! (:

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This post shall be about my favourite band as well as the world's greatest drummer, The Rev.
About Avenged Sevenfold, their album Nightmare had just been released on 27.7.2010. Though I got all their songs on like 24/25, i will still purchase their album. So yeah, try to support them too.

With reference to the songs in the album, there are two songs that I really liked. The songs are 'So far away' written by Synyster Gates for The rev, and 'Fiction' written by The Rev himself with his piano playing and his vocals present before he past away.

So far away resembles the feelings Synyster gates had for The Rev and is was written all by himself. Clarance once said that his fellow band members felt that it was good enough but Syn himself is not satisfied. This shows how talented he is. The feelings for the Rev can be clearly heard from songs through the album, showing that they are sad, and their love for The Rev. There goes one of my favourite song.

Secondly, fiction is also a wonderful song. As chenjun had said, fiction sent chill down his spine whenever he hears it. Which i totally agree, especially the part where The Rev's vocals came in, so beautiful, so touching. The lyrics written by him also gave me a feeling that he knew his time is up. The lyrics can be seen below:

Now i think i understand
How this world can overcome a man.
Like a friend we saw it through
In the end i gave my life for you.

Gave you all i had to give
Found a place for me to rest my head.
While i may be hard to find
Heard there's peace just on the other side.

[rev]
Not that i could
Nor that i would
Let it burn
Under my skin
Let it burn.

Left this life to set me free
Took a piece of you inside of me.
Now this hurt can finally fade
Promise me you'll never be afraid.

[rev]
Not the i could
Nor that i would
Let it burn
Under my skin
Let it burn

I hope its worth it here on the highway yeah
I know you'll find your own way when i'm not with you

So tell everybody the ones who walk beside me yeah
I know you'll find your own way when i'm not with you tonight

I hope its worth it whats left behind me yeah
I know you'll find your own way when i'm not with you

So tell everybody the ones who walk beside me yeah
I know you'll find your own way when i'm not with you tonight


From the first paragraph, it seemed that The Rev knew he was dying. And there is also rumours about the rev making deals with devil, so it is not impossible from this sentence :' Like a friend we saw it through.In the end i gave my life for you.'
By inferring from the second to the fifth paragraph, it also seemed like The Rev had been in pain and can finally fade.
Last but not least, the rest of the paragraphs are telling his fellow band members to carry on their journey without him and he hope that what he did in the past will be worth it.
'So tell everybody the ones who walk beside me yeah
I know you'll find your own way when i'm not with you tonight'.

The Rev, a fantastic drummer, and a genius songwriter conveyed his message through a song, fiction orginally entitled death.

Nightmare is definitely an album worth buying.

Rest in peace Jimmy, we will miss you. \m/

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Time: 08.08pm
Mood: Normal.
Music: Buried Alive - Avenged Sevenfold.

Shall update my blog as promised. Alright, this shall be a random post of everything that happened to me. (:

Friends. This is for my clique, and this is how i feel. I can feel the gap within us now. And it seems like we had difted apart. Was it because of me not trying to catch up with you guys? Trust me, i wanted to, but was too busy. I don't want to go back to the past, and you guys should know. The feelings is just like, I'm trying hard to hold back but everything that happened just showed that I'm not one of you guys anymore. Examples? Like you guys not informing me whenever there is an outing. Not letting me know about the details that happened to my good friend, something that everybody elses know, but not me. I know I can't say much, you have the rights not to let me know, but I'm just very disappointed. We had been so close, so close that my life is just about you guys. Going out almost everyday, slacking outside till sunrise, so much of inside jokes, sitting around a table for hours just to thrash talk and gamble... All these held our relationship close together, making us not just friends, but brothers. Thinking back about those wonderful time we had, and comparing that with now is really disheartening. What can I do to stay in the battle? With you warriors? I have no idea. What you dislike about me, feel free to tell me, and i will try my very best to salvage, this relationship of 11 of us that is now falling apart. There is so much feelings inside me that couldn't be converted to words. Just hope you guys understands what is torturing me.

Friends / Brothers?
I don't want it to end like this.

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Time: 22.45
Mood: Normal
Current Music: Seize the day - Avenged Sevenfold

After reading Shawn Milke's post on Revolver, it gave me the adrenaline rush to update my blog. Anyway, what should I start with? My usual post of my life? Or something different? Either way, lets begin.

Do you ever came across a time where your playlist shuffled to a song that bring you back to the past? Have you ever chose a song just to think of someone? Did your mind automatically play a song when you thought of someone? If you realise, this normally happen when that person used to be very close to you but not anymore due to some reason. Have you ever wonder why? Is it you or that person? What exactly happened? When I think back, I can't really remember the real reason. Why is this so? It is purely because I get angry or agitated over small problems that triggers the argument, where it will worsen and ended up with splittings. So, I realised the real reason; it is me.

I have to admit the jealousy in my heart when I happened to past by couples. It will remind me of this: It's been long since a girl's name repeatedly appear on my phone's screen. It's been long since I called up a girl and chat for hours. It's been long since I held a girl's hand. Haha, I sure sound desperate don't I? Don't worry, its just that I miss those little actions and happy moments which I'm lacking now. Sometimes I really needed a listening ear to listen to my sorrows, a shoulder to lean on when I'm sick of life. However, i still managed to survive. So the morale of this blog is :
Life = Vision Love = Colour
You can still see without colour, You can live without love. Love is just a decoration. (:

I guess I will update my blog more often.
So stay tuned people. (:

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Time: 11.11 pm.
Mood: Stressed
Current Music: Nightmare - Avenged Sevenfold.

As requested from someone, I'm here to blog blog blog. Hahaahha. As you can see, my mood is stressed. Should i have some desserts? *Spelled backward*

By the way, its chinese O levels tomorrow. So best of luck to everyone taking it! Must score A1 A1! Lol, sounded cliche don't I? hahaha. Anyway, poly sucks ttm! Meetings, presentations, common test, all in a week? Wtf. 3 hours transport everyday. How much more tiring it can be? Should i just give up on everything and just let it go? Fuck man. Feel so screwed up. ): I don't wanna fail, i wanna score. I wanna pass my Poly and fuck education. Lol, no more Uni. No more education. (:

Oh ya, tomorrow is raphael's birthday. Happy birthday raphael. Last long with your girl. (: And it had been long since i last saw you. See you soon! hahaha. And cheerup, my dear raphael. LOL.

Although Idk what to post, i shall continue to write to keep this post longer. Also, i got this feeling my desktop is gonna crush soon. LOL. My graphic card is screwed up and my ram isn't enough. Causing it to have blue screen whenever i dota. Damn, lol. My only game ... Soon, its gone... ARGHHHH! And hor, i damn bored nowadays. People, talk to me leh. hahhahaha. If not my life is going down down down down down down down ... ~ So sian. And leave a tag too, my box is dying!

Okay, thats all folks! Have a nice day! :DD

P/s: My blog is a happy blog? LOL. *winks. ^^

Quote of the day: Forgive and forget. Think in other people's shoe too. (:

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Time: 00.00
Mood: Exhausted.
Current music: Lip gloss and black - Atreyu.

Saying hi again to you people. Feeling bored and had nothing to do. Just finished my bstats tutorial where I don't know anything about it, just tried and complete it. It's better than a blank piece of paper right? Lols. Anyway, these few days had been boring to me. Didn't really meet up with them. And have had no idea how the planning of the movie had became. Hmmms, shall decide next time. Plus, yufei and chenghan not at home. It's freaking boring for me. Hahahahha.

Anyway, get to know all of my Poly-mates better nowadays, and had been getting along well. Which is a good sign? Cause all my modules requires project. So it is better to know each other beforehand so as to work better. Anyway, just to emphasize, Poly had been tiring for me, perhaps due to the long journey in the morning which reduces my dream time. lol. Some lecturers sucks and they sent question marks on our head. How are we gonna survive and get 4.0 for our GPA? GodDamnItMotherFuckingBullshit. Plus, it is so independent in Poly, crap I'm so not used to this type of education. Nevermind, I'll try my very best. Meanwhile, wish all of you people the best of luck. Chiong for GPA!

Forgive me people, this paragraph is for her.
How are you? Are you doing good? I have lots of things to tell you, but I'll never get the chance to. Perhaps, you don't even visit this blog anymore. Why? Why I seemed to disappear in your life and your presence is still so clear in my mind? This isn't fair. How can you say I love you and disappear in the next second? Forget it, life isn't fair at all. I shall let you go and move forward .. But years down the road, I will never forget your name, your face, your smile, your breathe ... That released a word that changed my life. I love you. Goodbye.

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Time: 10.10am
Current mood: Normal
Music: Nil.
Weather: HOT.

Hi all, I'm posting in Sonny phua's lesson. LOL. Super sian uh. Okay, let me talk about my poly life. Basically, wake up early in the morning, meet yq and cj den go to school. Sometimes meet yx kw, sometimes meet clarance dean jermyn. Anyway, when we reach school, we're either on the dot or late. LOL. Damn, then these few days i keep late. Kao. hahahhahaah.

Den modules are okay... Lectures are boring ... Tutorials are exhausting ... POLY IS TIRING!

Okay, here we go!

MIEC: TEACHER IS HOT! LOLOL. And its quite okay for me for the tutorial.

BSTA: TEACHER IS ALSO OLD. LOL. And also okay for me to do the tutorials.

BCOM: TEACHER IS OLD. LOLOL. One of the module i hate the most. Cause it includes presentations, damn sian. ):

OBSE: TEACHER IS BLACK! AHAHAHAAHAHAH. The module very boring uh, i also dun really like it, but still managable. rofl

IJS: TEACHER IS OKAY. Quite fun uh, that module. I like it, but hope that every week is interesting. :D

S&W: TEACHER SUCKS. Chose basketball, but learn basics. hahahhahaha. Passing, dribblings and stuffs. Quite sian ah, hope to play match soon!

Okay, no more liao. Sonny phua going through tutorials and i'm here posting. HHAHAHHAH.

Okay thats all. I'm ending! I'll be back if I suddenly thought of stuffs to update.

Thats all peeps. BYE!

P/S: We will survive in Poly, our friendship will last long! WARRIORS FTW!

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Time: 22.22
Mood: Shag
Music: Second Heartbeat - Avenged Sevenfold.

Hey all, decided to post again. Its quite boring for me now. Waiting for my friends to dota, and here I am, nothing to do. Anyway, heard that all schools will have their orientation week tomorrow. Meaning it'll be even dry tomorrow. Ahhhh!

Alrights, what should I talk about? Friends?
Poly is gonna start soon, will we part? I have no idea, but 11 warriors never die~! Let me start one by one of my friends!

Yongquan: Yo Gold hair. LOL. Remember last year where we quarrelled with each other? Its quite stupid when I recalled. Hahahs. Anyway, you'll always lend me a listening ear, you're definitely my great friend! We used to slack, play basketball and more and more. Hang out, heart to heart talk and stuffs. Glad to know that we're in the same course. Hope to stay in contact as long as possible!

Chenjun: Yo same course again. LOL. My longest friend i think. 4 years? And counting! Also one of my dota and dai dee mate. LOL. Thanks for being my friend. You rock! I still remember you're the first person i talked to in punggol sec. LOL. Lend tissue huh? FUCK YOU! :D

Yixiang: HI SAME COURRSEEEE AGAINNNN. LOL, you uh sibei dao de leh. But neverminds la. I know alot alot of you liao. LOL. And hor, we used to do homework togetherrrrrr. Dnt, history yeah!? Sometimes i wonder ... When will you find a girlf? Hmmmms, let time do the arrangements bah. Hahahhas. Got girlf must tell me hor.!

Choonkiat: Yo dick! LOL, you also one of my longest friend. You ah, dun always emo emo liao. I used to be the same as you de, now I okay liao, you lidat. Lol, dun giv up the whole forest for 1 chenghan la. LOL. 11 warriors never die? :D Stay in contact ah! Steady!

Clarance: yo seksy. LOL. With you hor, always kena spooky things de sia. Kao, LOL. hahaha. And thankyou for being my guitar teacher. LOL. Your skills is awesome. No doubts. ^^ And, dun make the wrong decision. Or you will regret.~ You should know what im talking. And remember stephen low class? LOL. Dun sleep in poly! :D Keep in contact!

Jiunn liang: Yo kapo. LOL. know you for not very long, but our bonds are strong! Hahhaha rhyme eh? And you also, dun javier too much, heard that you're a hardcore one. I dowan see black kapo sia. LOL. Got girlf also must tell me ah! hahaha.

Harry: Hi 4 year friend. LOL. Also got problem with you last time. But now, FUCK HER. RIGHT? LOL. Dirty my life only, no is our life. LOL. You should know who im talk about. :D And you hor. Dun think that you private dua bai hor. Must also contact us! :D

Yufei: HI NIANG. LOL. You ah, must study hard in Jc hor. Dun gamble, dota, go out liao. I dowan see you retain or what sia. hahahha. Say is lidat say la, FEI, GO YOUR HOUSE TON! LOL. And hor, only you go jc sia, dun forget us hor!

Dean: Yo deanie! I used to dislike you sia. Hahhaha! In school la, always thought of you as sarcastic freak and horndawg. But DEAN, I LOVE YOU NOW. LOL. hahahah. You become more sexy liao la. Best drummer siaaaaaa! And hope you get a girlfriend soon and must tell me also! Stay in contact uh!

Jermyn: Yo ting! We Seldom talk yeah, but you rocks! You also another guitar biantai! LOL. Go your house again someday! Got girlfriend must tell me! Dun just look at thighs la, character is also important! LOLOLOL. HAHAH. keep in contact!

Chenghan: Veggie! You damn best la. I LOVE YOU. LOL. Dota craze sia we all. + talking to you when i'm down is the best luh. Thanks for being my friend. And i like to tease you uh, dun angry ah! LOL. We different poly leh. ): Must keep in contact hor! Lol, and you promised me to eat meat LOLOL.

Raphael: Yo bone! You also damn nice la. Always call you confirm got come down de. Although you always afk in dota. Cb! LOL. Seriously, you're a good friend. Thanks for being my friend And last long long with her uh! :D Stay in contact!!

Zankai: Yo ZANKAI! LOl. Although our clique different, you also damn nice la. I LOVE YOU ALSO! Hahhahaha. Salt yeah? LOL. I also know alot of your secret. Used to but not now. AHhahah. Remember sand king become scorpion king? LOL I really laughed my arse out. Hahhahahahahhaha. Keep in contact ah!

Kevin: HI. And stop calling me da nai! LOL. Kevin ah kevin, dun keep late sleep la, not good for health. And dun eat too much la, later you grow 'watermelon-sized breast' LOL!! HAHAHAH DUN WHACK ME WHEN YOU SEE THIS! <3

All of this are for my closer friends. YOU are also my friend uh! Hahahha. Sorry for those i didnt mention!

P/s: Warriors! We promised to organise an outing where we, the 11 warriors will bring our 11 princess! Deal? :D hahahahahha!

Thats all folks! :D
Sayo and nara~

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Suddenly got the urge to post. Since its a random one, the time will not be beautiful. (:

Yeah, gave my camp a miss today. Yesterday wasn't feeling well and insomnia strikes again after my short nap, making me lack of sleep for an early camp the next day. The camp was quite boring (for me) but i made some new friends. They're definitely friendly! So i think i'll still be going for tomorrow, which is the last day of camp.

Recently, was back to dota frenzy with some of my friends. Sitting in front of the computer for almost 10 hours. I bet it will be hard for me to adopt in Poly life. Anyway, met a new friend in dota too. Yeah, thats why i'm so addicted in dota. *Winks* Hope that friend doesn't sees this... Haha. Just a joke. (:

Anyway, yesterday when i was lying on the bed. This question rushed through my mind.
'What is your good points?' I thought of it and i couldn't actually find an answer. Does that shows how sucky I'm? Oh it really does. To think in every way, I really do suck. Like studies, personality, looks, character and stuffs ... Not that I'm emo, but just a reflection of myself.

Speaking of which, its been ages since i blogged. Sorry guys! Kind of lazy yeah. :X
Okay, thats all folks.
Have got nothing to do as all of my dota mates didn't reply me. Maybe shall train on my skills! For ... ? *Guess it yourself. :D

Goodbye ~

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4.44pm, 大热天 ==

Hahhas, finally i'm blogging? Thats right!! I'm so bored now and i decided to do something i didnt do for years- blogging. LOL. As today was a resting day, I will be staying at home and maybe going out at night to slack as usual. Chenghan's bro was home and he cant dota with me. This added on to my boredom. Damn, so what should i talk about now? Hmmmmmms ... Lets start with enrollment!

Basically, the enrollment sucks! LOL. Alots of things to do and damn troublesome. 不幸中的大辛就是: Ngee Ann's enrollment is much much easier than other poly's enrollment. Other polys need to do things like Checkups, x-rays. And even required to go down to some bank to do their payment thingy. Omtian. Lucky me. LOL. Anyway, I still dunno what lappy to buy lehhh. Fugitsu or Lenovo???? AHHH. i5 or i7???? AHHHH! 妈的, just finish enrollment thingy now come lappy thingy. Damn it. ==
Anyway passerbys, tell me what lappy you buy leh, tell me which one good also. LOL. Ty.!

Now wanna talk about what? Hmmms. Okay loh, talk about outings loh. Yeah, basically we went to watch movies these few days. Like Percy jackson, wolfmen, True legend, and Being human. Upcoming will be : Happy go lucky and maybe Alice in wonderland. LOL. Movie marathon yeah? Hhahahah. And hor, we went to sentosa that day, to suntan! LOL. Its damn shuang la. Then we invent one new game. Which is playing dai dee ( Big 2 ) and the loser with the most cards will have to ask a girl for number, and it must be a success. LOL. Hhahah, interesting? Exciting? You will feel it when you play! LOLLLLL.

Hahha, now what? I damn bored laaaaa. Someone talk to me lehhhhh. lol. And hor, singapore is so damn hot la. like 36degrees? Damn it, on air-con also hot sia. One day must dunno bathe how many times. Fcuk this season, faster change lehhhh. T.T

Okayyyyy. Idk what to talk liao. I also dk when will i post again. HAHA.
You all must tag more then i will have the motivation to blog ma!
Be it passer-by, friends, enemies, and whatsoever! TAG!
So you people, FASTER TAGGGGGGG HOR!
LOL. So stay tuneeeee peeeeeeeeps!!
Thats all folks. Goodbyeeee!
Sayonaraaaaaaaaaaa~

(notice the pattern?) LOL

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0707pm, 晴天

Went to buangkok with lots of my friends that day. I actually promised not to drunk so as to take care of you all. But i guess i'm the one who is the worst bah. This is the first time i'm drunk, am i scary? Did i said alot of things? Or did alot of things? I dun know. All i know is that i vomitted for goddamn dunno how long and it felt like my heart is coming out also. Went to see doctor the day after and he scolded me for drinking so much despite my gastric problems. LOL. Thats why i only vomitted but did not have any headache. And perhaps, its my old gastric problems that cause me all this. Luckily nothing actually happened to us, and the police is good enough to let us go. And also, i wanna thank those people who took care of me, people like dean and choonkiat. And maybe some others that i dun remember. Just wanna say, thank you.

Anyway, I was damn sad that day, and kept on asking yongquan to go to punggol with me. I remembered this. And i missed her, but i didn't have the courage to text her like what my buddy did. Yeah, i'm afraid that she wouldn't even remember me, and she'll hate me. Flashbacks of her made my heart ache. I don't know if i cried that day, i only know that i wanna see her for once, just once and it will make me happy. However, in my state that day, i dun think i can even walk. I dun know what had happened to me, what i know is that i still love her. It had been a year already and i dunno if i can forget her when i go into poly. Neverminds, i guess the night in buangkok made me cleared my sorrows. I felt much better now, and i guess i would try to let her go, even though it is difficult, i will still try. As holding on to her wouldn't bring her back. Right?

Girl, what drug had you gave me? Its so addictive...
Anyway, Thank you for leaving all this sweet memories in my life. You will always remain in my heart. I dun mind if you had already forgotten me, i just hope that what you once said is real. I love you and i will do everything just to bring you back. But nothing could be done right? Just wish that you can live your life happily, please take care of yourself and dun make me worry. Hope that you can last long with a guy you truly love. Everything you gave me is still perfectly fine, and i kept it with me all these while. I am waiting for a chance to show you, that this is what you gave to me, handwritten by you. And i hope that you still have it with you; everything i gave you, handwritten by me. Goodbye my love, you left a scar on me, one that cannot be forgotten.
For my love,
K-

And to all my friends, thanks for the concern. I'm alrights, just a little not feeling well. Are you guys okay too? Hope so. And just hope to stay in contact as long as possible. Thanks for being there for me, i appreciated. And you guys stay happy too.

Is this a nightmare? Is my K- really gone?
Please wake me up, please wake me...

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Its 7:07 now.

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Hey all, its 2121 now, feeling fcuked up or sad? Same...

Alot of things happened in these few days yeah, guess alcohol is the only cure, my friends? Yeah, i think so too. I been through the same as you guys, and i'm still in the middle of it. I know its hard, i know its torturing. At least you guys have the chance to just drink and get drunk. Whereas i couldn't as I need to help you guys and etc. I'm not blaming you all or what, i just wished for a chance to get myself real drunk. Spill everything out and thats it. Maybe it wouldn't help but it would be better den keeping everything inside right? Hais, FML.

To my friends that just had a fresh breakup: Cheerup, there's many out there. I know saying this may be useless, but look, you cant keep holding on forever, like what i'm today right? So just try as hard to forget it when it is not as deep. Or it will be hell when it reached a stage that cant be changed. I've been through it, i understand. Feel free to contact me, for a heart to heart talk, or anything. Just 8 numbers away. (:

To my friends that are holding on for his girl: Hey, we're on the same boat. I know what it feels like. Seriously, the feeling sucks. Its like hoping for something that you cant get it. I know. Even though its no point holding on but i just cant let go, right? Sighs, I feel so lonely at times, do you? I needed company, or a shoulder to lie on, do you? I need someone to listen to all my sorrows, do you? Guys, we muz help each other to remove ourself's from this 'boat'. So just jiayou for another 3 months and we can start our life anew in poly. Make sure we stay in contact and we will organise an outing where we'll bring our girlfriends and go out together. Promise? And as usual, just feel free to contact me. I'll be more than glad to share my feelings. Thanks for being there for me, and i'll be there for you. (:

These words just represented me:
Solitary, Lovelorn, Breakdown, Sorrow, Lost, Tired, Heartbroken, Somber.
Any other ones?
Remind me on the cBox.
Goodbye, gooodnight, for good.

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Hey all, its been like ages since i last posted. Hahahhas, due to many's request, i decided to update again. :D

Anyway, its 06.06 now. (:

Speaking about results, I'm quite happy and satisfied about it. At least my hard work paid off yeah? And i applied for mostly Ngee Ann poly. Anyway, my desired course is Aerospace and i always had a feeling that i cant get in due to my results. Now, my result's qualified, and its my eyes that had been a burden to me; Colourblindness. ==
Also, hope that we can still stay in contact even if we went to different schools. Again, those who didn't did well, cheerups too. Its already over yeah? Forget about it.

Alrights, now to daily routine.
I had been playing computer all day and gambling all day.
Basically, it starts like this:
Woke up at 6PM or so, eat my dinner a.k.a breakfast.
Play computer till 9+ 10. Games includes Dota, Maple.
Go down to slack, gamble till morning. 5+ am or maybe later.
Reach home, bathe, surf net till 7+am , Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
And it starts again~

Owl yeah? My mom will say, 生活颠倒 or what, x.x

Anyway, theres this freaky spree that started between the gamblers.

It starts like this. 4 of us playing big 2 at one of the void decks nearby. Then, nothing happen and everything was fine. Then, we will be continue playing. Until like 10+ rounds, it will begin... It always begins when yufei was the distributor. Yufei will crack the cards, shuffle and open a card to see who starts first. And when he gives out. He will find something wrong such as the sequence of distributing is wrong and one of us misses one card. And that person will be me. Den all of them have the exact number of card except for me! MEANING ONE CARD JUST GO MISSING LIKE THIS!? And we cant find the card that is missing. Whats more scary is that it happened twice. First time is Spade 5 missing, the second time is Spade 10 missing. OMFG. The eerie thing is that theres funeral nearby... Omg. ;X

Hahhahahs, alrights.
Finally a long post yeah? Anyway, i wanna go tyo chalet!!! Omg, damn bored at home. Cant wait for the chalet. Hahahahahs. Will be having fun together and perhaps, our last gathering? Should be~ ):

Oh ya, i gonna go play dota liao. Stay tuned peepos. (:
P/S: I blogged liao hor, make sure all of you taggs. :X

Thats all folks,
Sayo and nara~ :D

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The time now is 00.00.

Suddenly have the urge to post. Maybe because i have a thousand words that is needed to spill it out. Nothing much these few days. Only gamble, maple, dota. Anyway, yufei's back. And, i'm scared of my results. Hope that monday goes well. ~

Speaking about school, i'm damn pissed off. Why must we cut our hair for just a result taking? Why last year sec 4s can have their hair so long? I colour back already give you face le sia. Crap school.

Anyway, i used to go to her facebook. But i always see things that i don't like. Somehow i'm in no position to say this. Just wanna pour it out. Hais, things had been difficult for me. Trying to let go, trying to forget you. Trying to be happy all day, trying to be cheerful. But it still shatters my heart when i happen to go through things about you. Such as going to places that we used to be, which made me reminisce about our past. That gave my heart a stab. I guess what i needed most is time. Or i shall go to a place, and never return. People often say, theres better outside. But to me, you're already the best. If i cant get you, how do i get a better one? Hais, why my life have to be like this?

Solitary is just the word for me.
Takecare~
Goodnights.

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The time now is 21.21

This post is for her. Sorry.

I've decided to let you go. I know its impossible to make you love me again. Or rather like me. You will never know, that i love you all these while. Though I managed to put it aside. Managed to suppress it. And keep it in my heart. Not letting anyone know. Its been long that I actually cried. So now, i gonna end this streak and continue posting with tears. Don't laugh at me. It's uncontrollable. People who been through this would know how it feels.

I know, there's someone you like. Or rather fond of. I noticed it. It hurts me. I kept it inside me. Not to let anyone worry. I don't need a listening ear, as it won't help at all. Luckily, theres vodka in my fridge. This would numb me temporary. At least for now. Now, i wish you all the best; for your future and your boyfriend. I may or may not exist in your life. I don't know. But you will definitely remain. In my heart, in my mind, in my eyes.

I don't know how to express this feeling by words. I only know i'm on the verge of breakdown. Despite this, i will still help you if you need. Accompany when you're lonely. And whatsoever. Its been 8 months and your scent continues to linger in my mind. I wonder how long would i need to forget you. Perhaps it takes forever? I don't know. I only know, i love you.

Your guardian angel.

When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok, it's ok, it's ok-a-e-a-e-ayyy.

and Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my-ay-ay, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and,
Please tell me you'll stay, woah stay woah

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

For you.
My beloved K-

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The time now is 17.17.

Yawns. Just woke up not long ago. Gambled till morning and lost around $4? Neverminds. Just enjoy while we can.. Posting while waiting for dotaaaaaaaaa.

Idk what to post already. Idk what to do already.

Everything i do seemed insignificant to you.
Just wanna say, you are the only reason my heart beats.

Hope to have an outing later too. Chill out is better to emo at home. (:

gooodbye peeeps.

P/s: Tagg please. From what i know, alot of ppl read my blog. But nobody tag. ==

Sayo and nara. (:

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The time now is 02.02 am!

Chenghan and kevin is staying over my house tonightttt. Yeah, zankai, francis, darren and Kimberly just go. Hahhahahs.

Back from sending her homeeeee. The walk home is scary can? Got some bell sounds and the lift no light, den suddenly have agn. Wtf. ;x

The time now is 4.44am!

Okayyyy, ordered mac delivery and now jus ate finish. hahhahahahahhas.

Hmmms, girl, i just can't bring myself to hug you. I don't know why.

I felt that i have no rights to do so.
I felt that you would reject me.
I felt that history would repeat itself again.
I felt that i would get hurt again.
I felt that I'm in no position to hug you again.
I felt that you wouldn't want me again.
I felt that i'm falling back down again.
I felt that i'm Lovedrunk again.
I felt that i'm missing you again.
I felt that i love you even more now.
I felt that i want you back now.
I felt that it is impossible for you to come back to me.

Whats wrong with me?
Sighhhs, neverminds.
I miss you, i love you.
Hope that you will understand,
that the feelings for you had never change.

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The time now is 11.11pm. (:

Yawnnnns..

Damn tired, back from first day of work. Yeah, went to JURONG to work. Fcking sia, the transport there alone took us 2hrs. == So, kevin decided to give up and find another job. LOL.

Things there are basically one word, boringgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg. Alrights, shall not further elaborate. I only know i'm veryyy tireddddd. ):

Alrights, now waiting for dotaaa as tmr will be a off day to celebrate francis's birthday!
Happpy birthdayy to youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu , GOH KIM SWEEEE. ;DDDDD

Sayo and nara ~

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